Contains sexual abuse - Ermmmm...Overwhelmed?

[TheseDays]

I don't really know how to think of the words..l but I've been wondering whether or not to post...

Basically something happend to me a couple of years ago... I can't say the word but I guess you have a idea, it was by my so called 'best friend'. Then other things happend by two other people but wernt as bad as by my best friend.

I'm probably not making much sense here but I just want a bit of advice I guess. I accidentally made a comment to my T at my last appointment... He then started asking me some questions about it but I didn't want to speak about it. I'm just feeling slightly overwhelmed as I have completely blocked it out for the last 2 years and it was hard him mentioning it as I just wanted to run out the room and just keep running.

I'm sorry this is so long and it's all a bit jumbled up... It obviously must be me for it to nearly have happend nearly 2 times again, it's my fault.

[Heaven Knows]

Hello.

Whatever happened to you was not your fault. Please don't blame yourself.

Do you want to speak about what happened to you with your T? MYbe it'd be easier writing it down?

I'm glad you posted to reach out. You're not alone. Try to be kind to yourself.

If you ever want to talk please feel free to PM me <3

x Katie x

[Violated-x]

Hun something as painful as what has happened to you will be painful when you relive it too, but that may be the only way of moving past it. You do not have to tackle it all at once - you could begin by talking to your T about your ex best friend - nothing more, just how they looked, spoke, smelt... I'm sure that in itself will be hard enough, but should break the ice enough to begin allowing you to heal

Do you feel you could try something like that?
(Plus, you wouldn't have to do it all verbally, as Kate said, you can draw, or write or even use dolls to reenact it... whichever you find easiest) xx

[Tina80]

With situations like these, most of the time you need to find a way you are comfortable of telling them to somebody.

Getting these things off your chest and being able to realise you aren't wrong for having them affect you the way they are, is usually what can get you moving forward

Here if you need to chat

~Tina xx

[TheseDays]

Thank you all for the advice, really appreciate it. I guess I'm just scared as I blocked it out for a few years so actually saying it/talking about it is hard for me.

I know my T won't push me into talking about things, he will just probably bring it up and if he sees im getting anxious and uncomfortable hell change the subject, I haven't actually been clear on what happend but I think he has a idea.

Kinda nervous for when I see him Friday as ill have to leave the house + go on my own which I haven't done all week.

[Violated-x]

You go straight there, and straight back. Your T will be expecting you at a certain time - and will therefore know if something has happened. You'll be ok :) we'll make sure :)

your T sounds brilliant, i'm glad you've got him :) xx

[TheseDays]

Don't tell him I said this but me too :) the last two people I've seen we're completed b****** and made me feel horrible so I'm glad I got passed onto him.

Xx