Hey - I can't talk to the professional as I'm not seeing him at the moment. I don't know what symptoms I'm getting (I'm struggling with emotions entirely at the moment to be honest, so starting to resent the meds I'm on), but I know I can't stop thinking about what happened, I keep being reminded about it and I often want to talk about it/say bad things about the people to sort of try and get back at them (even though I don't have contact with them and they'd have no idea of things I'd say). I know that I get nervous walking past people of student age in the street, and I automatically worry they will do something (like verbal abuse) even though they're complete strangers. If I see someone I actually know from school, I'm likely to 'hide'. I have a solid personal bubble too - I like physical contact, but on my terms, and I don't like people sitting really close or standing really near etc, and when I'm anxious my bubble increases so it's like I want everyone to get away, don't come near me. It's sort of a subconscious fear they will do something to me I guess - even if it's someone I really trust like a family member, my brain still relates it to being at school and people grabbing me etc.
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