Problems coping

Niniane · 21-03-2012, 05:20 PM

Hi guys,

I know he's been a long time since I posted here, but I was in a mental health facility for a month (after being in and out of other hospitals). I was fine when I came out of the hospital, but ever since I see myself falling on my old routine again.

I don't want to talk to people again, or rather like I can't. Just shyness, scared of being in places with a lot of people. I started SHing again, it's getting in a whole spiral again. I take my anxiolytics like smarties, although I keep on the dose my doc prescribed. But I have taken the maximum dose several times already, because I can't cope with the stress. Even taking out my garbages makes me scared out of my wits.

And I have a lot of trouble in dealing with money, which I'm pretty ashamed to confess, but I always "need" to buy more and more, like food and video, because it's the only thing that helps me relax a bit or puts the voices on hold. I started overeating again and having binges.

Basically, everything is coming back into a mess, and I don't know how to prevent everything from transforming in a cataclysm. I don't want to go on hospital again, mostly because I'm trying to keep it together with Uni, which isn't really possible in a psych ward since they aren't very cool with the use of computers. And I don't want to wreck everything at Uni, I already had to drop out of normal studying to homeschooling. I don't want to loose that, because it's all I have. It helps me to hold on, but I know very well that it can bring me down again. It already happened before.
I don't know where I'm trying to go with this post, I guess I'm just a bit lost, and afraid to go down again.

Koriandr · 21-03-2012, 05:26 PM

Did the hospital offer any follow-up treatment? Like maybe outpatient treatment or seeing someone outside of hospital to help you learn coping skills and give you things you need to help you cope outside?

I think it wouldn't hurt to talk to your doctor and see who they could recommend you to go to.

Niniane · 21-03-2012, 05:39 PM

Thank you for answering.
I see a psychiatrist and a psychologist, but so far it hasn't proved very helpful in coping skills. Basically it's just a place where I can rant or get meds.
I also have a treatment (quetiapine), and I asked for anxiolytic at my last appointment. My psychiatrist gave them to me without discussing.

metal_fiddler · 21-03-2012, 09:40 PM

What type of therapy is your psychologist doing with you right now, have you asked if they can teach you some coping skills or relaxation techniques, also give it a couple weeks but if it is still not helping it may be that the psycholgist is not the right one for you and you might find it easier working with someone else, but like i said give it a few weeks anyway. It might be a good idea to go and meet with your professors too and lets them know you are going through a difficult time perhaps bring a note from your psych.... doent need details just say what you might need, this way they know ahead of time and will be more likely to grant you extensions... and possible make up assignments if necessary. for exampleif things get too stressful or you need a mental break for a week. I can empathize with your university situation as i am in the same boat right now(i made arrangements with my proffs so that if things go sour i can still salvage the year) any way tons of luck and take care of yourself. If you want or need to talk PM me and im assuming your first language is french due to your location and your signature if you want pm in french if your more comforttable in that language as it is also my first language though being franco-canadienne my french might be a slightly different dialect

Niniane · 22-03-2012, 10:13 PM

Thank you for your answer!

Actually, I've been with my psychiatrist and my psychologist for nearly 2 years. Although she doesn't teach me coping skills, my psychologist is one of the few person I really trust and to whom I can say a lot of things (something I can't do with my psychiatrist).
And for Uni, I'm not going at the moment, I was accepted in the "homeschooling" program. So I have to deal with it pretty much on my own.
My first language is indeed French, but I have no problems expressing myself in English; it's actually easier for me in English than in French.