insulted the shrink

[longversion]

i have an appointment with a shrink whom i have a fight with and whom i've insulted and being so rude last time when i was hypomanic. that was last year may. i have bipolar disorder, i've self-stop medication last year july and i think i'm having a relapse right now. but i feel so anxious about seeing this doc. please give me something to avoid me changing my mind bout going to the appointment.

[Fry]

They have probably dealt with insulting behaviour before with other patients. They won't have taken it personally and they of all people will understand that you weren't in your right mind when you said whatever it was. You could perhaps apologise, that will help the professional relationship as a whole and show responsibility.

[startingagain]

You could write down what you want to tell him and that may help. He wouldn't be in that job if he didn't understand.

[when.will.it.end]

If you were ill then he/she should understand. You didn't do it in purpose and I'm sure they've seen a lot worse.

[Wonderful.]

Shrinks like confrontation, mostly anyway, I suppose having disagreements in life is normal, and if you can have an argument with somebody, come back and talk about it, then it makes you a stronger, and improves social skills. Dos that make sense?

You need to go back, especially if you are starting to struggle, let past be past and put your health and not a disagreement first.

[mikey]

Please don't worry, psychiatrists have seen all sorts! I once told mine to f-off when I was ill - I later apologised and she said she gets far worse than that and is very used to it. If it makes you feel better then apologise for your behaviour last time, but I can almost guarantee he/she won't even remember it!
And I agree, writing things down can be helpful.
Take care

[long road]

like everyone has said psychs are used to people for want of a better term 'kicking off' when ill. I threw my cuddly toy/ companion ducky at my psych once... writing thing is good.
and lots of good luck vibes xx

[MrsNutkin]

Try not to worry. It won't be taken personally.

[Whispered Secret]

I really wouldn't worry about it. Just say something maybe like "I'm sorry for how I acted when I was hypomanic, that wasn't me in my right frame of mind" or something like that. I've heard of people who've thrown chairs etc at their shrinks before now, so although I'm not saying it's right to insult them, they have dealt with worse.

Don't let it put you off seeing them again. If you need their input then you need their input. And they'd far rather see you now while you still have insight and a willingness to get better than in a few months time when the relapse has got worse and it's harder to deal with.

xx