i want to die so badly. i dont think i can do this anymore. i need to go. i need to escape. but theres no other escape but death. i need to die. i need to stop hurting. i need to get away. i cant do this. i cant pretend to be ok. i cant smile and laugh with ppeople who dont know who i realy am. i cant take it. i cant go one. i want to die so badly. i have cryed till i cant cry anymore and this is my last resort. please help me
*hugs* I'm sorry you're feeling so bad right now. Is there anyone you could talk to? Perhaps not even talk about how you're feeling. Just something to keep distracted. Can you go somewhere you know you'll be safe?
I'm sure you can make it, even if things seem so hopeless right now. Life can get better. Please hang in there... hope you're alright. You're welcome to send a PM if you need <3
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
If no where is safe and you think you will take action against your own life then you need to go to the hospital or to a crisis centre and tell them what you are palnning. We are all here for you and i am sad and scared that you feel this muych pain. The future may look brighter then what you could ever imagine right now as i imagine you are feeling a great deal of hopelesseness and verything probably looks pretty grey and listless but although this seems so cliche, things do get better and the swich can happen at anytime. It is so hard to realize this or belive it to be true when you are in a dark spot but they will improve. Dont try and hide it so much there is not shame is letting how upset you are show there is no shame in telling soemone how you are actually feeling, tryinfg to fake hapiness and pretending you are ok just takes a bunch of effort that can be used for better things in the future. hidin ga secret of how you are feeling can amplify the pain. let it out scream, punch a pillow cry even if you cant and share your feelings with a freind if you can but if you cant think about talking to a counsellor or a psychologist. You Can make it through.
Last edited by metal_fiddler : 02-02-2012 at 09:14 AM.
Do your demons, do they ever let you go?
When you've tried do they hide deep inside
is it someone that you know You're just a picture
you're an image caught in time
We're a lie, you and I we're words without a rhyme
There's no sign of the morning coming
you've been left on your own
Like a rainbow in the dark just a rainbow in the dark
~Dio
i cant call anyone cause they tell mommy. cant tell mommy. have to tell mommy to go to hospital. would mabie do that but id have to run away. also i don think they take kids without mommys or daddys. if i showed my feelings people would tell mommy. mommy. cant. know.
A counsellor or psychologist would not have to tell your mom most of what you are feeling, as a minor, they would only have to tell your mom if you are actively sucidal(you indicate or they believe you will take action to try suicide) although it it is always better to tell everything you can , you dont have to let them know that you are suicidal but do mention you have had thoughts... that you wont act on right now(if you do think you are an immediate danger though you have to tell to protect your life)Im pretty sure they are not allowed to tell your mom the other stuff unless you give them permission. I can empathize with how you feel on this issue, Im 25 and i still havent and could never tell my mom,however, i have a support system of medical proffesionals/counsellors. you NEED to create a support system because you are completely deserving of help and no one can do this alone!
Your post seemes quite frantic and upset i hope you are starting to feel a bit more hope and light and that you are still safe.
Do your demons, do they ever let you go?
When you've tried do they hide deep inside
is it someone that you know You're just a picture
you're an image caught in time
We're a lie, you and I we're words without a rhyme
There's no sign of the morning coming
you've been left on your own
Like a rainbow in the dark just a rainbow in the dark
~Dio
dispite me begging my therapist and school councelors not to tell mum the always do. they tell her everything i say even though i dont want them to. its made me stop talking to them. i have no suport system but here. some of the people on here helpt me through the worst time so im alittle better now but im stilol very suicidle but i cant tell mom or anyone else. if i was over 18 i would put myself in a hospital but as of right now for me to be admitted id need to tell mum. ive been planing this for a month
ugh. honestly i wish it was my funeral. i know its been i while. im sorry i just hate life. i honestly am suprised i lasted this long. ill prolly pm u if i can.
