Sorry if there's some special way your supposed to label a tread triggering, I don't post that much. But let it be known that this could probably be triggering O: so please please please don't read this if you feel its not safe for you.
Well to start off, I'm still stuck in my self harming ways. Lately I've been feeling like my injuries are neve enough. Like, no matter how much damage I cause I still want to do more. But of course I know I shouldn't, so I end up feeling even more worthless than before. Is this normal? What should i do? Nothing is ever enough now, and I'm sorry if that sounds overly dramatic. It's not that big of a deal, but I just want to get this off my chest and perhaps get an opinion or two. I hate asking for help :P anyway,thankssssss <3
I often feel like that too... almost like I'm competing with myself to make a new "worst" injury.
I don't think it's not just a little thing, or not a big deal. You could end up doing some serious damage, so it's probably best to prevent anything like that. Do you currently have any other coping mechanisms? Or anyone to talk to? I'm a bit blank right now, so I'm not sure about advice, but it might help to find something to do instead of hurting yourself (or someone to talk to).
Hope you're doing alright... Stay safe.
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this doesn't sound like an unimportant issue at all. and it isn't a particularly unusual one either, if that makes you feel any better.
when you have an urge, it might help you to remember that it isn't going to ever feel satisfying enough... so to actually do anything to feel better, you're going to need to find some other (non harmful) way to deal with the feelings.
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I also have felt like that. A lot actually. You just have to remind yourself that hurting yourself more will not satisfy you, because you know you'll just want more after that. Try to gain some sort of satisfaction from refusing your want to hurt yourself worse. Sometimes when I concentrate and try really hard and I go a day without cutting, it was hard at the time, but I feel really proud of myself the next day and it's like "take that self harm, you can just suck it" :P and it's really really hard to not hurt yourself when you so desperately want to, believe me, I know, but it did slightly help for me to make it a game for myself to beat self harm by denying it and not hurting myself. Did that make sense?
You don't have to worry about asking for help here, we're all happy to help <3 and your issue isn't insignificant at all. You're a ver important person, and how you're feeling matters :)
Don't hesitate to PM me if you ever wanna talk, hon <3
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