Contains bullying - I don't know what to do anymore. I'm Lost and Scared :'(
I wake up every morning thinking like nothing will ever get better. I tell myself that I should skip school cause it's safer for me to be home but I can't I have to face the bullying everyday. I get in the car everyday and think on my way to school what is going to happen today at school. Well first i am going to get in class and i will be laughed at. Then I will get hurt and bruised and then try to stand up for myself and get hurt again. I'm stuck and then lunch comes and people just shove me and laugh at me. I don't know what I did for this to happen to me. I then sit alone with my head down and wishing the day would be over. No teacher helping .. It will never stop.. I want to go home ... I want to be Safe... Why? Do i have to be hurt like this? Why! I didn't do anything... I want this to stop .... I want to be safe... I want to be healed.. I don't know what to do im stuck... Im hurt... but the one thing is that " I will Never give Up, I will fight and be Strong no matter how Long it will take... I will never give up! All I want to be is Safe.
i'm sorry this is happening to you and that it makes u feel so low, is there anyone you can talk to, a family member or a close friend? you need to find help and you need to be romoved from the situation you are in at school, you shouldn't have to face that everyday. I don't have much advice that i can give about bullying at school, but keep your head up and feel free to PM me anytime you want to talk, i'll try to help you as best as i can.
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You need to tell an adult whats happening to you at school. you shouldn't have to go through what your going through. its unfair and uncool. try saying no to the bullies and see what they do. if you stand up to them what happens?
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i'm sorry this is happening to you and that it makes u feel so low, is there anyone you can talk to, a family member or a close friend? you need to find help and you need to be romoved from the situation you are in at school, you shouldn't have to face that everyday. I don't have much advice that i can give about bullying at school, but keep your head up and feel free to PM me anytime you want to talk, i'll try to help you as best as i can.
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I have tried talking to my teacher and it didn't really help the sitution. I have also talked to my friends parents and they told the counselor and nothing happened. I really want this to stop... I'm really feeling nothing will ever get better... I want to be safe again.
You need to tell an adult whats happening to you at school. you shouldn't have to go through what your going through. its unfair and uncool. try saying no to the bullies and see what they do. if you stand up to them what happens?
If I stand up to myself. They get mad ad hurt me again. So I stop standing up for myself or ill get more hurt. :'(
my heart goes out to you.
What they are doing is not right, you deserve to be able to be safe at school. like the others have said hard at is telling someone is sometimes the only answer. if telling one person doesnt work try telling another, you stop asking for help and you never get it then later you beat yourself up about it, at least thats what happened to me. i dont know about US but here in UK there often a specific member of staff you can talk to about bullying. Are there any teachers / staff members you trust more than the others? If so i recommend talking to them, it isn't an instant solution but they'll be someone else trying to make it stop.
as for standing up for yourself its a difficult one, sometimes it makes them hurt you more. sometimes it stops them in their tracks. the thing with most bullies is they are looking for a reaction, no reaction at all and they can get bored. so if you can try as hard as possible to completely blank the might make life a little easier.
I cant understand what it's like for you, noone else can. But i've been bullied and come out the other side. It gets better.
stay strong,
jen x
p.s. feel free to pm i got bullied from 5 to 16, i'm 18 now and slowly dealing with it. anyway i'm here if you want to talk.
Remember that bullies are cowards.
There is usually one main bully, who has followers.
Maybe standing up to the main one will show that he/she is a weak frightened child who is more scared than you, and most certainly will have experienced bullying of their own.
Have you read the book "Feel the fear and do it anyway" by Susan Jeffers?
It's hard to stand up to bullies when your self esteem has been eroded that badly. It takes confidence to stand your ground, and when you have none you don't know what to say do you? I remember I would try and try to stand up to them, but I would just clam up and talk a load of rubbish and ultimately be about as threatening as an angry pomeranian! :P I still struggle with that now, 12 years later. In a conflict I clam up and spend the whole time concentrating on not crying, and then I walk off burst into tears and think of all the awesome kick ass things I should have said :P
Anyway, eventually I twigged that it was my reactions they were feeding off. So in my head I took a vow of silence, withdrew into my head and cut myself off from them all entirely. I refused point blank to respond to ANYTHING. At first the bullying got worse as they tried harder to break me. But I was stoic. Even when a lad called Dean spent a whole hour hitting me over the head with his bag I just ignored it.... I acted almost like I was autistic... just shut them out. But eventually, it got boring for them and then I got less abuse and more ignoring which I was a lot happier about. But I had to spend nearly a whole year in silence...Year 8 was that bad I have no memories of it.....
What I SHOULD have done was when it began in year 7 I should have swallowed my pride and told people. But pride and shame stopped me. As well as that annoying bully behaviour where they will alternate between being awful, and every now and again really nice (a tactic to keep u on your toes and think maybe they're not all bad.... so you don't tell...) So although it is the best thing you could do, I understand how sometimes telling is an impossible thing.
