I am at the lowest of the low, and I can't do this anymore.

steenerxsmiles · 03-09-2011, 06:00 PM

I'm 18 years old. I've been considering suicide for the past six years or so. I have been going steady with a boy for two years now, and last night he told me he just "didn't have feelings anymore" and that my depression and anxiety issues were too much for him. On top of that, my mother dropped it on me that she is marrying a man I can not stand. I quit my job, and now really there is just nothing left.

needle girl · 09-09-2011, 03:55 AM

im sorry things are so rough right now, try not to blame yourself for your boyfriend breaking up with you, its not like you want to be struggling so much. are you getting any professional help?

*offers safe hugs*

Snow White. · 09-09-2011, 06:04 AM

Hi Kristina,

It sounds like there's a lot going on around you right now, with your boyfriend breaking up with you and your Mum marrying a man you cannot stand (a feeling I am familiar with). Howcome you quit your job?

I'm wondering if you have any professional support at the moment, anyone who knows how you're feeling and struggling. I know this are difficult now but please don't give up, things can change and get better. Can you tell us a bit more about yourself? Your passions and interests, friends, etc?

As difficult as things are now, and have been, it is completely possible for you to move on through this with support and get better, and experience a life worth living. Please, give yourself that chance.

Stay strong xx

Isoverity · 09-09-2011, 06:41 AM

You'll probably end up lucky losing the guy. The mum marrying outsider thing is worse. A steppy is the worst. If I had kids I would never put them through a steppy. That said, if you calm yet not accepting you can preserve yourself and not give others an excuse to see you as the problem. If you just look snotty and belligerent they have an excuse to dismiss you - don't give it to them.

PassedExpectations · 10-09-2011, 01:57 AM

how are you doing?

its important to have things to fill your time. if you have nothing to do or to occupy your mind, its easy to start rehashing events and feeling really bad and down about yourself or everything in general.

why was it that you quit your job? could you look for another one. or a volunteer one, if it was that the job was too stressful... also, make sure that you're still seeing friends, or making new ones. going to a class or club can be a bit stressful at first, but ultimately the interaction with others will lift your mood. and so will making friends