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My views on life......i guess it may trigger
My views on life
• Doing the same ****, day after day
• No one ****ing cares
• Hoping that so called friends don’t stab you in the back
• The feeling of guilt that never leaves
• No one understands, even if they say they do
• Life is pointless, you just do the same stuff everyday
• Memories never change
• Over time, talking does help, even though it hurts like hell at first
• Scaring/worrying people is not what I meant to do
• People are worried for my safety, but there is no reason to worry
• No one knows everything about any person, everyone has secrets
• Having to find ways to distract my mind/my thoughts gets tedious after awhile
• **** sleep, its not important
• People have different opinions on what is right/wrong, harmful or not, serious or not, etc.
• Life is based on luck, either your lucky, or your not
• The life you have, is the life you were destined/fated to have, you cant change it, it was meant to be
• Be careful of what you think, because your thoughts become your words, your words become your actions, your actions become your habits, and your habits become your character
• Stupid mistakes destroy your life
• **** life, it sucks
• No free time
• Very stressful
Everyone has a secret that they want to keep hidden, a secret that could change the views of those around them. What is your secret? Could it be used against you when your friends stab you in the back? Would people not believe or trust you if they knew about it?
You ponder these thoughts and realize that the world is better off with out knowing your secret. But you realize that too late. You have already told people about it and there is now turning back now, you can’t change the past no matter how hard you try. All you can do is learn how to deal with it on your own.
People say talking helps, but all it does is bring forth the memories you tried so hard to forget. Making you remember every bad thing that’s ever happened to you, making it hard to find or remember any happy times. You remember all the **** that’s happened to and around you, and there is nothing you can do about it.
You’ve dealt with it all on your own until now and now you don’t know what to do. Having to find a different way of coping isn’t always easy. Thoughts of doing it again are often present in your mind, but you wont give in. You cant, you cant break your promise no matter how hard it is, over time it will pass.
Losing sleep and getting headaches are consequences of what you did. There is no one to blame but yourself, no matter what other people say. They don’t understand unless they themselves also did it. Even if they know the whole story, they will never be able to understand how you feel unless they also went through it.
Once people know about your past, they will be worried for your sanity and safety. Wanting to keep you safe from not only other people but yourself as well. Sometimes your own mind is your most dangerous enemy.
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RIP Anna i love you so much....u will always be in my prayers and thoughts.....
