Anyone esle feel trapped by there ED ?

[Born Survivor]

Anyone else feel trapped ? I feel like i'm stuck in a cage with invisible bars. Im worried about what Anorexia could/will do to me. What happens if i stop eating completely what then, the end ? But at the same time im scared that can i live without Anorexia ? How will i cope with life when/if im "better". When im upset angry in the future will i do something worse ?

I feel so torn, wanting sometimes to get better but then other times running back into Anorexia's arms and feeling safe. And when i question myself more and more about this i just want to get worse because its the only way i can see.

I don't no how to feel what to do, how to act. I feel so trapped and caged.

None of this makes any sense anymore...

[Ninja Orange]

Just wanted to say that recovery is about learning new, better, coping skills. You can't just throw away one coping mechanism and expect to be able to function without anything to replace it. Are you getting professional support in your recovery?

[nowhereman]

Anorexia doesn't make sense but I know how appealing it can seem when you're unwell and suffering. There are other options though, healthy ones. You shouldn;t feel anorexia is the only option for you. Nor do you need to be trapped by it, although it could take a lot of work from you to get through it and get better. Never give up though. I'm here if you need to talk, fb.

[amylee]

feel exactly the same :'(
love xxxxxxxxxx

[when.will.it.end]

Yes totally.

It occured to me last night that any way forward is ****. If I carry on like this I have to deal with the negatives of ED's and if I start recovering I have to deal with all the negatives/fears around that as well. So 'trapped' is definiatly the word.

[nowhereman]

*hugs for you all*

[a_seething_one]

Yes, very much so. I don't struggle with anorexia, but I feel very much stuck with my ED, and how hard that it is to change.