Feeling sorry for myself!

[Angel2fire]

This is really stupid, but I'm feeling sorry for myself because I can't have a night out.
In theory I could... but in reality it would be the most stupid, dangerous thing I could do. I'm on several tablets you're not supposed to drink on, for a start. And there's always a danger I'll become an angry/violent drunk which could land me in trouble.

I'm so self destructive at the minute I think it would end badly... but I really really really want to go and get drunk!

[insidemyhead]

What do you do to comfort yourself?? Maybe curl up and watch a favourite film or tv series of yours, preferably innoccent or funny, not anything like horror or thriller. Or write things out to avoid your need to drink, what do you hope to achieve by getting intoxicated hun? Do you have any friends who you can come to or you go to them so someone can distract you and stop or control any alcohol intake so you dont get drunk? I think you should do something completely comforting (not in a self destructive form ofcourse)

[dollpart]

God, I know that feeling so well. I've stopped taking medication but drinking (on and off tablets) has had such disastrous consequences for me that it's just a terrible idea these days. It takes so much to control that urge... especially when everyone around you is doing it, when it's possible to go out but just not advisable. Especially when you're feeling a bit self-destructive anyway.

It's not stupid to feel like you do- not at all. I have a lot of moments thinking, "f this I am going to do what everyone else does and get plastered" but... how much worse would you feel if you took that attitude and something did happen and you had that whole inner-voice-I-told-you-so happening?

Anyways, insidemyhead's suggestions are pretty good. I also go on RYL chat a lot when I get that way... other people about, often in a similar frame of mind, especially on Friday nights when it tends to put even more pressure on the whole going out thing. And anything else you enjoy, but isn't destructive... and even (sounds weird I know) mixing a drink like a vodka-soda-lime Without the vodka... can help. a bit.

Sorry this is long.

*hug*

[Aimless]

What do you do on nights out, besides getting drunk?

It can be difficult to stay sober when everyone else is drinking, but maybe you could go out and do things that don't involve alcohol. What about your friends - do they really think alcohol is necessary for a fun night? Maybe instead of that, you could all get together and have a game night, or a film night. Et cetera. Besides, it's also a good distraction.

It's good that you see the possible dangers - and you know what the right decision is. I always suggest dancing in front of the mirror (or anywhere private really) to your favourite music; it's a great way to get a bit of tension out.

Take good care of yourself. You're worth it.