The tears are rooling down my face. i keep looking at myself wanting and needing to cut. but i wont i musnt. I must hold on. i just want to scream. How can they keep me away from my daddy. I may be eighteen but i still need him. I want my daddy soooooooooo much. But the divorce between my parents is ripping me in two. she tells me he is bad i know he is not. What the he**. i already have bipolor and now the manic depression is comeing back. I know it is childish but I WANT MY DADDY!!!!!!!! I NEED TO BE DADDY"S LITTLE GIRL. I think i am going crazy.
Hey huuuuge hugs.
youre not being childish at all. Everyone needs their parents, whatever age they are.
youre very strong as you have said about not cutting, which is good, hold on you can fight throough tonight without cutting.
divorce is hard, i have been there, my parents split too. Its hard when your being told your dad is bad, but you know what you feel for him and you clearly want a relationship with your dad and as long as you want it , theres no reason you cant have that with him, just cos your parents arent together.
remember they love you, the problems are with eachother.
maybe you can tell them its ripping you in 2@
take care, im here if you wanna talk, keep posting and distracted
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"If only everyone could know and live with their inner craziness…people would be fairer and happier." Paulo Coelho
the reason this is so painful is my mom and now adopetive dad want me to call him dad. i live at there house and have to live by there rules. My last name was changed to my stepfathers last name and i hate it. he will never be my dad. i dont even know why he adopted me cause he has said himself he hates me. Do i do as they say or go homeless?
*BIG HUGS COMING YOUR WAY VERY TIGHTLY*
Hey Hunny,,Your Story Just Brought a Tear To my Eye,,it's so Touching to My Heart,,It's Not Childish Missing Your Dad At All,,I Miss My mum Even Though i Get To see Her Every 3 To 4 Weeks i Still Miss Her,,I Couldn't even Feel The Pain You Must go Through,,Depression Is Alot To Carry Especially At Your Age,,When You Must Be Trying To Get Your life On Track,,But Just Try Keeping Your Head Up high For Now,,If You Ever Want To Talk,,Im Here,,x x x x xx x
hey there samara. i'm very sorry to hear about what you're going through right now. my parents are divorced as well, and for a time my step-mother tried to get me to call her "mom." i never could bring myself to do that. as far as your mom and step-father asking you to call him dad...i would suggest just being honest with them...if it makes you uncomfortable they should understand that forcing you to call your stepfather by another name would be a lie if you don't view him as a father in your heart. i hope this all calms down soon. as far as leaving home...take a step back and really think about whether or not your ready for that step. it sounds emotionally stressful where you are right now, but if you just hang in there maybe sometime soon down the road you can get your own place, when your ready for it. hang in there. we're here for you. XX.
my whole life has been. running with the wind. and playing with the cowards. it’s so hard to see. i’m fractured within. a poet in a window. we’re bastards and thieves. we’re lovers and saints. we’re holding on to mourning. and in the shadows i will be. until the sunlight melts away. until we tire of murder...fill me up with love...say goodbye when you leave. remember to breath. remember to listen. it’s getting harder to be. the son you want of me. the son i’ll never be.
