i guess i am not okay. *triggering*

[ashes to ashes]

i couldnt help it. i cut myself again. and not just a little bit. it was more than i have done in months. i wanted it to feel bad. but it didnt. i am not even home yet, and i thought that was gonna make me do it. i am actually alone on my floor at school and...

it is so bad, the thing i used...i stole it from someone else.....that's not even okay.

i dont know what is happening to me.....i am falling back to where i was.....

[NoWarButTheClassWar]

Ashleigh;

Healing is a process, it really is. You said you haven't done much in months, and that's what you can focus on right now - being proud of yourself for that. I don't think I personally know anyone who's ever successfully stopped self-injuring without slipping up a few times in the process. It's like trying to overcome any other addiction - trying to go cold-turkey is sometimes a little overwhelming. There are people here who care and would be happy to support you, whether in distracting yourself or working through things that bother you or just having someone willing to listen. Don't be afraid to make the best of that.

Best,

Krim