So Confused...

[Hak'tyl]

So, today, I had to work all day. I've gotten to where I hate my job, but it was all good because I got to work with one of my really good friends and the two of us always joke around and goof off. Anyway, I was actually having a really good day when a certain customer came in. I noticed a large welted scar on the underside of her arm and, upon closer inspection, saw more littering the top of her arm. Even though I didn't act like anything was wrong, I had the overwhelming urge to cut. And, on my way home from work, I was listening to music when a particular song came on that had me on the brink of tears. So far, even though I still feel the need, I've managed to keep myself busy enough with various things so that I'm not able to just sit and think. What's going on? I was having a good day for once and then these feelings came on. I really don't understand.

[TheShade1989]

Triggers? Do certain things usually make you feel that way? I mean, I'm not one of those ppl who'll be triggered by anything...just my own thoughts. So I'm not exactly sure, but it seems like some ppl, or most ppl, certain things that they see/hear/feel/etc. will make them have an urge to cut or something, regardless of how they feel. Just keep doing what you've been doing, keeping busy, and focus on your good day and everything.

[cheerios0are0forever]

i know for me seeing someone with scars (which doesnt happen a lot) triggers me. Ironically, talking about cutting also triggers me, (to the appropriate frustration of my therapist). so its not that weird that all of these events thats happened to you that day would trigger you.

[MayhemBee]

triggers happen at the most stupid times and in the most inconvenient places.
these things happen, and they can be really hard to deal with.
for me the scars thing is the frustration of seeing someone who is cutting and knowing tht i cant do it myself.