Graphic - Im unsafe... but my mental health team dont seem to care. :(
Im really scared as what is going to happen to me if i dont get the help i need soon.. :(
Basically i was admitted into a psyc unit at the begining of september.. Told my social worker that i was thinking of jumping off a bridge, She contacted my psychiatrist at the time and i was admitted to the unit for 3 weeks they wanted to asses me, Well anyway after the 3 weeks... my psychiatrist said she doesn't seem to think that being in a psyc unit or being on medication is for me. She even took me off my sleeping tablets Im not sleeping as it is.. I think in the last week ive had just 10 hours sleep, thats just 2 hours a night..
This week has been far worse than i have been before.... I have a plan together to end my life.. I told my psychiatrist and psycologist on tuesday but its like they are niot intrested.. I tried ending my life last night but failed miserably.
I dont know how im suppose to get through this... I rang the unit up an hour ago to speak to the staff, was told to go for a walk to help clear my head.. I cant do that Becasuse if i do i cant promise that i will still be alive later.
They do agree that im a danger to myself though...
Im thinking about just ending my life... Always known im going to end up another statistic.
How do i get through to my mental health team to let them know that i really am at the end of my tether now.?
Also, you could try and find another counselor, maybe?
Why are you thinking about killing yourself? This place is for help and support too, please don't think like it's the end!
I, will not look away this time
Take all these cuts, and make them shine
And all this pain I’ve held inside
So I can find my way home again
I will not look away this time
Take all these cuts, and make them shine
Don’t want to be perfect, just alright...
Also, you could try and find another counselor, maybe?
Why are you thinking about killing yourself? This place is for help and support too, please don't think like it's the end!
Yes my mht know about my last suicide attempt...But they say that i look ok, look happy..look fine.. They just dont seem to understand me thats all. :(
Im waiting for a new psycologist, because mine is leaving. Thinking about killing myself because i cant put up with the voices/visions/thoughts anymore..
It's infuriating to know that you're finding it so difficult to access help. Your Social Worker should help you with this - have you spoken to him/her and explained the situation?
I went to a&e monday morning at 7am, told the doctor and psychiatruist there how im feeling about felling if i have 3 minds and everything else. They both laughed at me... so i left.
Im seeing my social worker later.. in about 10 hors time... The only thing is i have to try and make it... I had a plan to end my life now.. So im trying to not give in.
But its really hard because when i normally set my mind to something i have to do it. :( Be it good or bad.
*hugs*
It sucks so much when people don't take you seriously, makes you feel like you're making everything up or it isn't as serious as it is - when it IS.
I hope that you get the help soon and stay as safe as possible!
But these are flowers that fly and all but sing: And now from having ridden out desire They lie closed over in the wind and cling Where wheels have freshly sliced the April mire. Robert Frost, "Blue-Butterfly Day"
Try to stay safe until Friday. What makes you think that you're not going to make it? Do you have a plan?
Suicide dreams are horrible, but they're not real, and it doesn't mean you're going to act on them. Stay safe.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
I'm not trying to be negative by any means. Ive been through what you been through. For goodness sakes when I was in a psych ward for attempting sucide I was aloud to leave. But my question is What kind of help do you want? Is it you just want someone to belive you. Do you want to be in Hosital? You have to think clearly what you want then you can access the help based on that need. You NEED to be clear in what you want. I belive the reason they don't belive you is because they honestly don't belive anything will happen. Sometimes this is a doctors approach. They know for a fact that it will be okay. They can't protect you. Im not trying to be mean at all. Again I have gone through this. Ive been treated this way. But what they are doing is actually trying to help, but making you figure out things for yourself. At this very time is sucks because you hurt so much, but when you see the light it all makes sense. I can't explain the feeling but its amazing when you get there. Trust me there will always be bumps ALWAYS, but try to look at it from a different perpective.
Try to stay safe until Friday. What makes you think that you're not going to make it? Do you have a plan?
Suicide dreams are horrible, but they're not real, and it doesn't mean you're going to act on them. Stay safe.
I have a plan... I've started buying the things for my plan to work. Ive just given up completly. sorry.
Just keeping trying with these morons.
The only thing they seem to understand is if you hound them.
Sure, they are incompetent fools that like to ignore you, but really, try them again and again, it will lead to something better eventually, no matter how it seems just now.
If you need to talk to somebody or anything like that, feel free to PM me and I'll be here.
(I know my message wasn't really sparklingly positive, but I hope you can see what I'm meaning through it).
"Tutto č bello..." - "Everything is beautiful..."
Nicola to Matteo, La meglio gioventů
Im not sleeping as it is.. I think in the last week ive had just 10 hours sleep, thats just 2 hours a night..
This week has been far worse than i have been before.... I have a plan together to end my life.. I told my psychiatrist and psycologist on tuesday but its like they are niot intrested.. I tried ending my life last night but failed miserably. 
much apprechiated.
