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what next? beyond frustrated and annoyed...
none of my doctors, even the ones in the past will give me my medical records. I went and requested them and they never called me about it. I called them back a few weeks later and they are like oh well we are waiting for them to be approved. APPROVED FROM WHO!?!?!?!? why do I need someone else's permission to see my own records, I don't even go to that practice anymore. I really don't want to read what someone else has written about me I really don't. I don't think that would make me feel really good about myself, but I wanted to know what meds I was on how much of them, how long I was on them before I stopped, and why I stopped the med. I want to know this because I can't remember back 2+ years ago and I told them this. It still frustrates me. I've been seeing my psychologist for over a year now and he hasn't really helped me figure out any tools that I could use to get through things or how to deal with things differently. I'm tired of going from doctor to doctor and med after med and struggling to get through school and life and work. I'm scared I don't want to keep pushing people away I don't want to hurt anyone I don't want to lose my boyfriend. I just don't know what to do....I really just want to give up. I'm sorry I just rambled but i don't have anyone to talk to and I'm at a dead end.
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