Triggering (Suicide/Sexual Abuse) - Ahhh i am in need of hugs
i really dunno what to do anymore. i suppose I joined this website to try and get a bit of support from people who have been in similar situations. atm im at a mental health unit and have been for 10 months which is kinda ****. ive been struggeling with PTSD for quite a while, after being sexually abused, which started when I was about eight years old. Im now 16 and finding it really difficult to talk about past experiances, however i dunno how to move foward when that big secret is still in my head.
Im at home today on leave form the hospital and im finding it really hard. i just want to cut myself to pieces until im drained of blood. i know i sound wierd but i cant cope with these feelings.
I wish I could say something to help. I think you're so brave for starting to talk about these things. You've come so far and I admire you for it. I know it's hard sweetie but please keep fighting. You mean so much to me and I wish I could take all this hurt away. Please keep yourself safe Jenny.
I know being in hospital isn't the greatest of experiences but hopefully you'll be out of there soon. Remember if you ever need to get away you can stay round mine or I can sleep round yours if that makes it easier for you. I'll phone you tonight sweetie and I don't know whether you know yet or not, hopefully we're meeting up on Wednesday.
Love you lots,
Take care,
Laura xxxxx
Sometimes the way in life seems cloudy...But remember, after the storm comes clear skies
*hugs very very tight*
When the time is right it'll all come out, I know right now that seems no use to you but until your ready you'll never be able to handle talking about it. I know it sounds so cliche but as time goes by everything will get clearer and easier to handle. Right now your mind and body is still struggling to come to terms with the past but it does get better I promise.
I know this post seems a bit pointless btu I just had to say something.
I'm so sorry for whats happened to you but take care and know theres ALWAYS people on this site ready to help at any time you need.
Just keep working with yourself and your doctors but don't force yourself, if you force yourself to talk about something your not ready to deal with yet it can cause more damage then good, that is definatly the one thing I've learnt.
take care
beth xxx
hey hun...i think it can be frustrating when you spend so much time in a place like the one you're in and it doesnt seem like you are getting better. but there is no time limit on the effects of abuse. it will be a part of you forever, but we can learn to deal with it and lead a some what normal life..i know how much PTSD can rule your life, but you're strong and will get through it sweetie.
give yourself as much time as you need when it comes to talking about the past, if you think you're ready maybe you could write it down and show it to someone in your unit. once you get that secret out and people know you might not feel so alone. when someone is abusing us one of the first things they try to do is isolate you from the rest of the world, talk about your secret and it wont feel so heavy hun.
take care xoxoxox
Do not follow the common path.....go where there is no path and leave a trail.....
Sweetie I had no idea. Sarah told me it was something really bad had happened but she was protecting your confidence and obviously wasnt going to tell me what and I didnt want 2 ask her. This must be so difficult 4u. If it helps, I was also told yesterday I have complex PTSD, so I kno how hard it is 2 struggle with it. Its going 2 take a lot of time, and a lot of strength, but I kno u have strength. U r strong bcos u have kept fighting it. ( Sorry just seen the date, this is a bit of a delayed reaction!!) U will get through this Jen, and u will b happy again. Please if u feel that u can, talk 2 me about this. I will listen and I will try and help u.
I love u lots.
Stay strong babes
xxx
