Triggering (Suicide) - feel like giving up

Fallen_Half_Angel · 16-08-2007, 02:42 PM

hey, ---- ive also put this in serious----
i just feel like giving up, my life is just f'ucked up!! i owe my bank so much money!! i have to sell my car, which is upsetting me stupid amounts as i hate letting things go, and its been my source of freedom away from my family, its been my home for the night when ive been kicked out, but its the only way im gonna get the £1500 i need to give the bank in the next 20 days!!

also, ive had my phone barred, because my phone companys being stupid.

i might not be able to go back to uni cz i failed my first year, and ive screwed up chances of getting back in, and if i do get back in, then i probs wont have a loan

it was my BFs birthday yesterday, and i couldnt even afford to get him a card, never mind a prezzie!! hes starting to get fed up of my mood swings, and coming home from work at 5pm to find me in bed still cz i just cant face the day!!

my dad was tryin to help but they think im just a disappointing screw up, and dont understand anything about my depression and SH and how much worse im becoming!! im cutting more and more and deeper and deeper!!

i just feel like giving up, jacking it all in, and putting everyone out of there misery, im such a fu'cking burden to everyone!! i just wanna take a bottle of vodka and some fuc'king pills!!

sorry for ranting any hugs or anything would be v appreciated!

Xye · 16-08-2007, 02:53 PM

Im sorry to hear that. I cant really say much other that i hope it gets better and if you want to talk feel free to PM me. Take care.

pea soup · 16-08-2007, 06:30 PM

thats certainly alot to deal with.
im sorry youre having such a hard time.
im not really sure how to help right now.
so i'll just offer some *gentle snuggles*
much love.
xx

Bitter_Angel · 16-08-2007, 11:10 PM

Have you spokn to anybody about your depression?

All those things that you mentioned are just material objects. There not esentials. Sure it sucks losing your car. But it only serves the same purpose as a much cheaper car.

Maybe you could take a year out of uni to confirm that it is what you want to do. You could spend the time working and pay off some of your bills. Then next year if you still want to go to uni, you will be in a better postion to do it and can reapply for your loan.

Dont be too hard on yourself.
Kim