Triggering (SI/Sexual Abuse) - Scared

[bethstar]

i start abuse counselling tomorrow, and i'm terrified, because even just thinking about him and how much he hurt me breaks me into pieces and makes me want to cut, so if i am sat with someone talking about it face to face won't things just be 10 times worse?
i'm so fed up of being scared all the time, but sometimes i think that having it locked inside my head is better than letting it out.

[Bitter_Angel]

you answered your own question there.
You say that you get scard of talking about it, well thats one of the biggest reasons you should have for doing this. To get over that fear and claim your life back. Go into it with a fighting attitude, beceause you are so much better than the person who orginally made you feel this way.

As for it being hard, your therapist should know how to deal with this and only take you back over things at a pace that you should feel comfortable at. But make sure that you tell them your concerns. maybe even print this post out to show them. They can help put your mind at rest.

And where all here if you need to talk about anything.
Let us know how you get on
good luck
Kim