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Quick piece about finding a voice
This is the first thing I've written in the last 6 months since coming off of Effexor cold turkey. I swear, those pills drained me of ALL creativity. I wrote this in a matter of minutes. It just came to me. I didn't even think it deserved its own thread here, but I didn't want to tack it onto the end of another post and then get in trouble for it not being in the proper place...
anyway:
I like it when the nerves in my hands buzz. If I lay my hand on my neck I can feel my heartbeat, but it vibrates a litte. A buzzing with every beat. It's the same as when you hum quietly and feel your throat. It's that vibration. That's what makes me think it could be another voice. Another voice inside of myself that doesn't get to come out. All it can do is hum quietly in the background of my heartbeat and hope to be noticed once in a while. Perhaps it's that voice that I've been lacking as of late - the one that thinks I'm not half bad. Perhaps it's that voice that would stand up for me and say, "There is nothing wrong with you." If that's not what it is, then I should certainly get one of those... one of those nice little voices that stands up for you amid the ruckus of your mind. That would be lovely.
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