Triggering (SI) - Urgh

[Anna92]

I was so desperate not to cut. German exchange in 2 weeks and I don't want new cuts, the old marks are bad enough. Instead I've just ended up scratching and drinking stuff which is well not intended for drinking, I don't think I'm allowed to be specific on here. 3rd time in 5 days with drinkin it, I had stomach ache and no energy the weekend cos of it so I've got another few days of that now. Don't know why I'm complaining though, it's not like I deserve anything more :( Not even sure what the point of this post is, I guess I could just do with a hug I suppose and just to tell someone where I don't feel judged... I'm sorry for wasting your time if you've actually read this... :(

[chinahorse]

ive read
i have no words today
have a hug instead.
xx

[Gone.]

Reading this thread wasn't a waste of my time! Honestly.

Whatever you drank, if it is causing stomach aches then it probably isn't advisable to drink it. I think you realise that though. It might be an idea to go and see a GP if you are still feeling symptoms, you can also be more specific on here when you PM a first aid advisor and they will be better at advising you on that score. All I can say is try not to do it again, however helpful that statement is.

Why do you feel the need to cause yourself so much pain? I'm glad that your German Exchange trip is a reason not to self-harm, just keep that as your target to work through the urges. Have you got anyone to talk to about this? Often talking can help you calm down so much and you may find the urges easier to deal with. When I have urges I call up a friend or go on here and into chat and that helps a great deal.

Look after yourself.