Shes leaving saturday

[Gravity]

I've sort of been seeing someone for awhile, but, nothing official or serious, we've gone out a few times but alot of it is just sex and the likes.

Before people make judgements we do have feelings for one another, but because of my problems i've kept myself at arms length when it comes to having a relationship with her.

Last night she text me asking if i still wanted to be with her, shes leaving for uni on saturday which means i'm not going to see her for ages.

The problem, i don't know, thats it. I don't think i'm the guy for her and the other way round. But at the same time i don't want to let her go.

I told her that i'd talk with her about it today but i'd rather just crawl into a bottle like i usually do.

I don't want her to leave and get into another abusive relationship which she had done before she met me but then theres the fact that i'm an alcoholic loon with plenty of faults.

I understand this is coming off that i'm just ranting and expecting someone to wave a magic wand and its sorted, but i'm clueless, i barely know what i want to do on my days off work let alone what i want to do in terms of something like this.

[Shenanigans]

Perhaps that's what you need to say to her? Explain the worried you have and talk it through.
I know that's hard, but you both deserve a clear picture of how eachother feels.
Sorry that's not the best advice in the world, but I hope things work out for the best =)
Take care
Xxx

[rach]

I don't know you well enough to offer you advice in terms of whether you should stay with her or not, and I'm sorry not to have a solution for you.

However, you're in my thoughts, and I hope things work out for the better for you, whatever you decide. Good luck