Triggering (SI) - I dont get it...

LozzyGirl · 14-08-2009, 10:40 PM

Okay so tbh my head a little messed up atm.
To start off with I'll explain a triggering dream I had last night... well more like a nightmare... I dreamed that I was on here.. and for some odd reason my dad was on the phone to someone about it. This was all good stuff. I cant remember what but i was doing something extremely good to recover. And then my dad says that they wanted to talk to me (Okay weird that it was my dad.. im closer to my mum) And when I got on the phone whoever it was said "So I hear your taking a positive step to recovering?" And i laughed and said yeah. then they said "Good. Cause this is your last chance Lorraine." Or something like that. In my dream i literaly threw the phone back at my dad cause this scared the crap outa me. This person was threatening me.. but i cant understand why/how. My last chance or what..? In my dream i reconised the voice and for a while after i woke up i could hear this voice going round and round in my head. I do reconice it. It was female i know that. But i cant remember what it sounded like now... And when i first woke up i thought "I think thats scared me outa doing it again" But since i got up this morning ive wanted to do it. I dont know why. My heads been a mess all day and all i can think about is what this dream means. (i beleive dreams mean something) And the only thing i can come up with is that its trying to tell me that if i dont stop sometime soon im gunna go too far and do serious damage or unintentionaly kill myself or something..
Yeah my head been in a mess all day. Ive been thinking things i probably shouldnt. Like about how im going on holiday tomorow, i was thinking, 'yeah no one would notice me not being on here.(Ryl) No one would be bothered' Which in my opinion isnt a nice thing to think. Its like theres a small part of my brain whispering these things to me. making me believe them.
sorry for the rant. I just dno what to make of this.

LozzyGirl · 14-08-2009, 11:01 PM

Bump?
Please i need someone to reply to this soon since I wont be able to come on tomorow. Or at all next week tbh

PassedExpectations · 14-08-2009, 11:23 PM

I'm not sure what to make of the dream, but maybe you could use it to motivate you to stop. Sometimes we do our best thinking while we are asleep, so you may want to listen to the dream. And I would notice that you were gone, btw.

Have a REALLY, REALLY good vacation, use it as some escape time, you don't have to be in real life for a bit... you get to be in HOLIDAY LIFE (which is sooo much better)

LozzyGirl · 14-08-2009, 11:26 PM

Thanks. Im gunna try use it to stop. And since in going on holiday im not going to take anything to cut with so hopefully that will like less the chance of me doing it.
And I thought maybe you'd notice but like i said that little voice in the back of my head was saying otherwise.

l'il esky · 14-08-2009, 11:38 PM

hey,

wow what a confusing dream. perhaps you had something on your mind before you went to bed and it merged together and created the wierd dream.

where are you going on holiday? who with? try not to think too much about the dream, this isnt your last chance, recovery comes with ups and downs so unless something awful goes wrong you always have another chance

xx huggles xx

Twisted Fate · 15-08-2009, 03:59 AM

Dreams usually reflect things you think about during the day and fears you might have. Dreams don't really mean anything. There have been many studies done on dreams and Freud's ideas on dreams. To make a long story short his ideas on dreams and dream interpretations don't have much support from research. In psych classes I have learned that people usually dream about ordinary every day events or things they think about, sometimes even things they fear. I don't think dream interpretation goes much beyond that.

Elegy · 15-08-2009, 05:17 AM

I was thinking along the lines of what Twisted Fate wrote. My guess is that your dream just means that you're scared of what might happen if you don't "quit" soon. And of course, bring those fears to the surface just made you more triggered. So I would suggest trying to talk about your fears, try to think through what scares you and why you're triggered right now. Talk it out on here or to a friend you can trust.
*hugs*