My horse, my princess, my reason for living just died. she's fucking DEAD. I don't understand how this happened. She was fine this morning. Fine. I don't need to live anymore. I need my Mozi. I just don't see the point without her here. I just want to die without her. I just want her back. So bad. I just don't know I don't understand she was fine! I just don't want to live anymore. She was the only reason I'm still here. She's gone. I'm so sorry for wasting space on this. I just don't have any reason anymore.
*hugs*
You aren't wasting space at all.
I am so so sorry that this has happened, I really am. I understand so much, that losing an animal that you love dearly is just as bad as losing a human loved one. I have been through it myself. nearly 3 years ago and when I think about losing Giles, it tears me up inside. They mean the world to you, and don't feel bad at all for posting on here about it. I'm glad you let it out a bit on here, post as much as you want hun, honestly. Do you not know what happened at all? giles was fine one morning and then died. It was horrible not knowing what had happened to him (he was a chocolate lab, not even 3 years old) we much later found out, that he had picked up some poison in the park. Someone had put it down to try and kill foxes. *anger*
Would she want you to die? I don't think that she would. She would want you to live a long happy life, and think of all the memories you have together, the good memories. Hun, please take care ok? If you want to talk I am always around and my PM box is most definatly open.
xxxx
oh honey *cuddles you tight* i am so sorry this has happened. it is obvious you dearly loved your horse and i know it can seem like there is nothing left when someone you love dies but please keep strong,, there is still so much to live for. as said above,, think of the happy times you have had, those moments can never be taken away from you.
i know things are hard right now but take care of yourself,, it will be okay.
LAura sugar, please keep yourself safe, you deserve a good life and i know your hurting ad feel you cant live without her but you can get through this. No one wants you dead............. I knoiw i dont. You can be strong.
You have reasons, make a new reason. I'm sorry you lost your horse. I still miss my cat, but I have given myself a reason to live, and that's ME. I may be broken and will never be fixed, but I'm working on it. I hope you start to feel the same way too, and find a new reason to live that works for YOU.
That probably makes me sound like a hippy therapist, but what more can I say? I'd feel very down if I were you.
Take care of yourself x xx x
I don't approve of suicide, but I know that your feelings are totally valid. I'm so sorry you lost your best friend. I know what it's like to lose an animal I truly care for. And I know it's hard to accept that most animals have to die long before we do. I don't know WHAT I'm going to do when my lovely Ashley passes away. She's the best cat ever. But no, I can't even talk about. Even thinking about her dying nearly brings me to tears. So, you see, you're not alone. We all understand and most of us can relate. I'm so truly sorry you lost your horse. *hugs*
So long ago, was it in a dream, was it just a dream?
I know, yes I know
Seemed so very real, it seemed so real to me
Took a walk down the street
Through the heat whispered trees
I thought I could hear
Somebody call out my name as it started to rain
Two spirits dancing so strange
Ah! böwakawa poussé, poussé --John Lennon
*cuddles you tight*
I know this is really hard, losing an animal hurts just as bad as losing a good friend. I am just so sorry =( You need to keep strong though, k hun? We're all here for you. PM anytime.
Jess xx
I wanna stay inside all day
I want the world to go away
I just don't know what to do without her.. it's not like I'm not going to get another horse. Hell, I have 3 not counting her. It's just not the same. She was my best friend, she has been since James died. Now both of them are gone.. and I can't help but wonder what I did to deserve losing her 4 days before my birthday. To deserve losing both of my best friends in under a year. To deserve this living hell. I don't even care right now. I just wanna let go..
*hugs* I know how hard it is to lose an animal that you were so close to. My dog was the reason I never tried to kill myself in middle- and high-school. He passed on this past October. It's hard and it hurts like nothing else, but it gets easier....slowly...but it does. I'm sorry I can't be more helpful, I'm still broken over the loss of my dog. PM/IM me if you need to talk.
I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Oh, but God, I want to let it go.
If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see, you can find out first-hand what it's like to be me.
You'll need a symphony to give sympathy to the girl with the worst luck in town.
When I care, it curls me up on the floor and I swear I can't do it anymore.
i don't have anything to say except that i'm so sorry about your horse..i can't imagine the state i'd be in if anything ever happened to my cats.
as dravenstar said, loss IS hard, but it does get easier, and suicide is not the way to make it so.
take care
xemily
big hugs hun..the best thing you can do now is just allow yourself to grieve, most of us know what it feels like to lose our animals, they are part of our family and thats a big loss. you'll always miss her but it will get better..this too shall pass. hold on sweetie and remember you have 3 more horses that love you just as much as she did, they need you too.
take care hun
xoxoxox
Do not follow the common path.....go where there is no path and leave a trail.....
I'm so sorry this has happened. I know how it feels, I remember coming home from school to find my pony dead, quite a few years ago. It hurts so much, and you cannot find a reason to live when you are filled with this greif. Maybe make a special box with her grooming stuff, a horse shoe, some of her mane or tail (i have a plait from my pony who died, it goes everywhere with me), pictures of her, rosettes, anything that has her memories within it.
She wouldn't want you to be hurting, she wouldn't want you to kill yourself, you know deep down she wouldn't.
Sweetheart, please take care, and keep talking. Crying and feeling pain is totally normal in this situation, but please stay safe as well. Your other horses (i gather from above you have other horses) who need you. They wouldn't be happy if you left them too, they need you to help them get over the loss of thier friend too.
I wish I could give you a huge hug
take care,
rachy xxxxx
Are we demented or am I disturbed?
The space that's in between insane and insecure...
You're not wasting space at all, don't worry about that. I'm so sorry for you, I can't imagine how awful that is. I know its hard right now but you can be strong. You'll never replace the loss of a horse with another because they all have their own individual characters but over time you won't forget and will remember her for the good times and will slowly get easier. At the moment, you've still got three other horses who depend on you, be careful, you need to be there for them. Its going to be a long road, but you can make it.
Sorry if thats a rubbish reply, I didn't know what to say.
Kim
Laura, darlin, you know you can always call me or drop me a message online, okay? Thank you for staying strong last night; I was pretty worried. *hugs*
honey, i know how you feel, i have a horse, and he is my reason, he is my everything, ive had to put him on loan for a few years, so i cant see himm now till i finish uni and that breaks me, its two years away, i can only imagine how you must feel, and i can imagine, and im so so sorry this has happened, i know how hard it is, to lose a horse, a best friend, an everything, im here if you want to talk, always
love lora x
I scream for the sunlight, or a car to take me anywhere, just get me past this Dead and Eternal snow.
And if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere, just take me there, and lie to me and tell me it’s gonna be Alright.
- Conor Oberst
*cuddles* I'm so sorry you lost your best friend! My dog was my reason for living for years too, and she just died, so I'm so so sorry! You will find another reason for living in time. There are reasons! *massive hugs*
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*big hugs* I know I said it to you on other things but I really am so sorry you lost her sweetheart. I know how much she meant to you. You haven't done anything to deserve this. *pets* You can get through it, and even if they're not Mozi you have the other horses and animals to help ease some pain. *cuddles* I love you honey.
I understand your heartache, I still remember the time I found my runt of a cat Fuzzy, dead. She had crawled her way back towards our house, after being hit by a car.
It shocked me, and hurt me. But I remember her to this day, and enjoy what she gave me and I have her. I would not be the same without her. We're all here for only a blink in the cosmic eye--and losing two of the most important friends in your life this year must leave a big gaping hole in your heart.
But you're still here, and so are we. We'll help you mend your heart in time.
