Having a low day.

[I Fall Mute]

I'm trying this new supplement (SAMe) for the depression and I'm feeling really down today. I'm feeling panic attacks coming on and I feel either numb and totally disconnected from reality or just overly upset. But it's only been 2 days so I probably should just see if it passes.
I'm starting to want to use anti-depressants more as these natural supplements have not been working. The social anxiety and just anxiety has been increasing lately and the suicidal thoughts are coming back more and more.
It was working for a while..
But I really need to talk to a doctor.. I just can't because I don't have health insurance nor the money to afford a trip to a doctor without the insurance.

[Tig]

Sorry you have been feeling so bad. I'm aware a lot of time has passed since you made the thread, how do you feel now?

It must be very difficult being unable to see a Doctor. I'm not sure what to suggest with that as I am in the UK so unaware of how it works elsewhere, sorry.

Do you have support from family and friends? x

[I Fall Mute]

I'm not feeling much better. Sometimes it's a little easier, but it's mostly not.

Yeah, it's weird here. I should have health insurance again soon, though, so I'm hoping that I'll be able to go within a few weeks.

I finally told my mom that I really need to start taking stuff for this because it's been too long and I haven't 'gotten over it' like she thought I would.. so I've been able to talk to her about it and she's helping me figure out what to take and all that... but she's really against anti-depressants and I dunno how I feel about them either but it's starting to feel like I have no choice..
Only one friend knows about it and we're not that close (she's going through the same thing). I'm not open with people, really, so no one has any idea about any of it.

[Cacoethes]

how are you feeling today?

when i have low days i dont feel like doing anything, so i make a point of trying to do something to distract myself, it usually works.