everyone asks me this, i want to be thin. End of, but because of the LACK of help i am getting at the moment there is a part of me that wants it to come to that so they stand up and notice how bad i've become. Its changed me completely and i dont know how to stop it. I prob should of posted in the ED section but i was wondering if anyone else had actually wanted to be sectioned. Dont get me wrong i dont really WANT it but its hard to describe. im not making any sense :(
there is also a part of me who wants no friends and everyone to hate me. I deserve it for all the trouble i've caused
... i have no friends and everyone DOES hate me. trust me, it's pretty ****. you are lucky to have friends who care about you! you haven't caused any trouble and you don't deserve to have no friends and people hating you just because you're ill! what you have is an illness... if it were, say, pneumonia, you wouldn't want people to hate you just because you were ill! it's just the stigma that comes with mental health.
anyways, i assure you, having no friends sucks. and you do deserve to have friends and to be cared for by them!
i guess thats kinda right, still doesnt help me feeling that way though mental health does have one hell of a stigma!. Im sure you have people who care about you and you have friends here on ryl x x
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... i have no friends and everyone DOES hate me. trust me, it's pretty ****. you are lucky to have friends who care about you! you haven't caused any trouble and you don't deserve to have no friends and people hating you just because you're ill! what you have is an illness... if it were, say, pneumonia, you wouldn't want people to hate you just because you were ill! it's just the stigma that comes with mental health.
anyways, i assure you, having no friends sucks. and you do deserve to have friends and to be cared for by them!
I don't understand why anyone would want to be sectioned.
To want to be in hospital I do understand, but surely going in voluntarily if you want to be there makes more sense than being sectioned?
I wouldn't volunteer to go to hospital because I don't think I need it, it would be a waste of resources and peoples time and effort and money. but if I was so ill that I HAD to be put into hospital, I would be too ill to think it was a waste of time and effort and money. I want to be cared for. Looked after.
sorry i think i worded it wrong, i meant be in hospital kinda sectioned was probably the wrong word. I am sorry, my head just isnt straight :(
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I don't understand why anyone would want to be sectioned.
To want to be in hospital I do understand, but surely going in voluntarily if you want to be there makes more sense than being sectioned?
Heidi, is it strange that in the past I've wanted to be sectioned but not in hospital? Sounds funny I guess! But from my point of view (and I don't want to be sectioned or in hospital these days) I hate hospital. Hate it. But I've had so much experience in my life of feeling I had to take responsibility all the time, and so much experience of people not taking anything I said seriously, that being sectioned was always the ultimate "People hear me" thing. I knew if I was sectioned on a ward instead of voluntary, when the Controllers would try to bully me into running away, I'd have ammunition against Them: "Can't; I'm sectioned, gotta stay" kind of thing. That said, I value my freedom and know a section would be pretty bad for me.
Sorry to thread-hijack.
misstained, a lot of people on RYL want to be in hospital sometimes. I have in the past. Now thinking of hospital just reminds me of how terrible I felt when I was there, but some people do find it quite nurturing and safe.
Having read your first post more thoroughly, I wonder if there are any other ways that you could get the help you need without hurting yourself more. What sort of help are you getting, and what sort would you like?
After being in and out of hospital and being sectioned once, but most of the other times it was either, sent to psych ward by ambulance from A & E didn't get a say but wasn't sectioned (don't understand) or threatened, if you don't agree to go in we'll section you. I fear hospitals. And sectioning scares the hell out of me but sometimes I wish people would realise that I am that bad/actually worse, and need the help, and sectioning (though maybe not at the time) may make me feel like someone out there cared enough to get me sectioned...if that makes sense?
But I don't really want to be sectioned, and at the time would think people were trying to kill me or something, it wouldn't be until hindsight that I realised they care and sometimes want that care again (from the people, not the hospital/doctors who didn't care and sectioned me but the people that made me get assessed etc...)
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You made up your mind to torture mine!
If you read a scar like a book, you will relise the story in which you over look
Ive been in hospitals many times over the past 2 years and been sectioned 3 times I think...
In hospital I went through a really rough time even to the point where I had to strip right in front of two nurses for sharp implements, and one nurse wouldnt even let me out of my room cos I was on observations! I hated hospital while I was in but now I'm out I wanna go back in cos I feel i need it at the mo... sorry for my little rant there... basically what I'm trying to say is maybe ur minds tellin u that really u need to go in for ur own protection... almost like a little battle saying dont go in and go in... sorta!!?
I'm sorry I'm waffleing on a bit but u can go in and still be looked after just like any other pattient (detained or not)... being honest being detained was awful in my experience... to be sectioned is to be by law made stay in hopsital meaning u cant leave until they see u fit! and if u do they can bring further athourities in the police for example...
Sweetie by the sounds of things ur struggling and need extra support but u can still get this as a voluntry patient its just u have more rights then.
take care xoxox
Each tear drop falls with sorrow, hoping and praying for another tomorrow!
I agree, you should try to go in voluntarily. Cause if you're sectioned you can't change your mind, though I understand the feeling of wanting to be cared for. *HUGS*
I can understand wanting to be sectioned. If you go in voluntary you feel like you're wasting people's time. To be sectioned means that you can surrender responsibility and just accept being looked after. It also feels like the professionals accept how poorly you are and it affirms that you have an illness rather than something that is just going on in your own head.
