i cant ****ing cope
i cant stop crying
i hate my past, my memories
i hate my body
i cant cope with this, i cant cope with my work
i cant ****ig cope with anything
and i dont know wht the **** to do
i just sit here sobbing
theres no ****ing point to it
to ****ing any of it
Hey,
If you want to talk, you're more than welcome to message me. It sounds like you could use some support right now, and someone to talk to, and if you want to, my door is always open, yeah?
I'll just say one thing that came to mind, I know its hard to think that way, I understand, believe me I do, but; Your past is not your future, and you never know what's round the corner until you make it there. Nobody is perfect, but we are all beautiful, no matter what anyone says, we are all beautiful.
As I said, I'm always here if you want to talk/rant/vent, always :)
Stay strong Hun,
Marie xx
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
those people are wrong about what they think of you. & even so, to be honest (although i don't know what happened) they probably weren't thinking of you as an individual but more just as somebody to take advantage of.. as bad as it sounds, it could have been anyone & they were wrong for doing that but it wasn't your fault & you did nothing to encourage something like that, there is nothing ANYONE could do to encourage something like that i don't think.
maybe you should try speaking to your tutor etc about this? especially if you think you are falling behind on work, that could help to relieve some of the pressure that you feel.
i agree with linda, not your fault in any way. *hugs*
do you have a nice tutor? mine was great when a told (ie skimed over) what had happened and said i wasn't coping with work. they are really good at extentions ect here, they will want a doctors note or somthing to prove your not making it up (which is a bit insulting) but they are really kind about it. what course are you on? im in secl and they are really good about it all.
thanks for your replies everybody. and hugs. thanks.
danskpige- i dont want to tell my tutor that stuff, it makes me very uncomfortable and yeah its not going to happen. they know about my self harm and previous sui attempts and stuff so they know i have stuff going on.
they have been understanding but that only goes so far, and they have given me alot of lee-way i guess with stuff.
but pathetically even with that i cant cope.
im just not functioning.
therapist said that she thinks that i have been disassociating alot.
im just not with it.
im trying to keep strong, but im failing and failing to see a reason why anymore i guess, but here i am ...still.
sounds like you need a proper support system. not just tutors & psychs but friends & family. i really don't mean to sound patronising you know but even just knowing that people genuinely care about your wellbeing & having them show you that on a regular basis is important to your self esteem & even just everyday activities. having things to look forward to, etc.
i know it sounds dumb but is there anything you can think of that you think would help you? in general? and what kind of steps do you think you can take towards achieving that?
always around.x
*hugs* im sorry they wheren't able to help you more, linder is right you sound lke you need a support network.
wish there was somthing i could suggest. but your not pathetic for not being able to cope many people with no problems at all cant cope with uni, uni is really really hard and when you have other stuff to deal with to its no surpirse you are finding it hard.
sorry i cant be of more help, but im here and thinking of you if that makes anydiffrence *hugs again*
