not coping

[~sara~]

I havent been feeling so bad recently, been taking my meds and generally getting on with it. But over the past 5 days I feel like Ive just hit rock bottom. I havent been able to sleep, crying all the time over the silliest stuff and over nothing at all. I just feel like Im not coping .

I have a job but the lower Im feeling the more Im not doing well at it (I support a disabled teenager, so me feeling like this isnt the best atmosphere) I am scared that I'll lose this job and then that will be it. Ill have lost everything.

I live with my girlfriend, so I need the money to pay rent and bills and I can't lose all that.

Im thinking about going back to the doctors tomorrow, but everytime I go there I hear myself talking about this sort of stuff and I just wish I would shut up and stop moaning.

I had been doing so well, still getting the odd low days but everyone does right?

All ive been able to think about is cutting but Im scared I'll lose the trust of my girlfriend and that it will be in a place easily seen at work.

I dont know what to do....I just feel lost

[Stellata]

How're you doing now?

Did you get to the dr's? If so, how did it go?

[Queer Fringe]

sorry to hear that hun...that must be hard...

[~sara~]

thanks for the replies. I went to the drs but didnt really say what was going on. ive just started seeing a counsellor now, and things are looking a bit brighter. hopefully ill get somewhere before i go back into the darkness again so that i can see that maybe i have gotten somewhere,

[Stellata]

I'm glad you're getting some help through this.

[crazykat]

Glad your getting the help you deserve