Triggering (OD) - My world is about to come crashing down...
um, not to be dramatic or anything...
I'm meeting with my therapist tomorrow. I'll have to tell her about the overdose on Sunday. I'm also going to have to tell my psych prof about it when I'm explaining why I still haven't finished my paper. But anyway, when I tell my therapist about that, she'll call my parents. I only have three days of classes left, then reading week, then exams, but I'm probably not going to be able to finish the semester considering how far behind I've gotten. How the hell did I go from being on our equivalent of an honor roll to probably not even passing a single class in the space of a single semester?
Oh, and to top it all off, the "d" key on my computer is broken, so I have to copy an paste every time I want to type it.
Emily
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I really hope that your teachers would understand, usually they are understanding. Is there a chance that you can make up some of the classes over the summer so you wont be so behind next year? It is good that you are going to tell your therapist about the OD, she might be able to help... and if you are scared about her calling your parents do you think you could tell them before hand. Sometimes it is easier for parents to hear that kind of thng from a profession though, because they the therapist might be able to make it more understandable for them. I hope that everything works out for you hun. And I hope that darn D key starts to work for you!
I'd rather have my therapist tell my parents than have to tell them myself. And my therapist would find out one way or another anyway, because I have to explain to my psych prof why I haven't turned in a paper that was due last week and why I did such a crappy job on my presentation on Monday (reason being that in addition to not having prepared at all, I was probably actually high at the time from the stuff I took the night before). So anyway, she'd then tell student services (considering she cc-ed them on the email she sent me yesterday), and student services would tell the health center. So at least this way I'll have the support from my therapist before I have to deal with student services and the director of the health center.
I'm in college, so I'm not going to get behind really exactly - worst case scenario is I end up writing a spring-fall thesis and graduating a semester late, but since I was doing okay in my classes until recently, and the semester's almost over, I'll probably be able to take incompletes in most of my classes and finish stuff over the summer.
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My appointment's in 15 minutes. There's probably not much point posting this since no one's going to read it before I have to leave, but I'm so nervous... I know that I have to go to my appointment (considering my therapist will call the CSOs if I don't show up), and I have to tell her cause if I don't I'll end up failing all my classes and also hurting myself even worse, but ack...
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So I told my counselor. She had the student services person come talk to me during the session as well. I have to go back in two hours (or now more like an hour and a half really), during which time my counselor is going to call my parents. Of course I also have to bring her all the medications and alcohol I have when I go back.
I might be allowed to stay on campus for the rest of the semester if one of my parents comes up here to stay with me, but even then they aren't sure. Otherwise I'll probably have to go home - I'm not going to be allowed to live on campus without basically having someone here to watch me 24-7. I might be able to get incompletes in some of my classes, or I might just flat out fail, depending what my professors are willing to do.
I can't really decide if I even want to try to finish what I can of my classes. On the one hand, yeah, it's a semester's worth of work, but on the other, I just want it all to be over. I want to stay on campus through this weekend because it's like a big party type of thing for the end of classes (during which I'll actually be safer than normal, but I don't think student services quite believes me about that), and I want to go to my volunteer job next week because I actually really enjoy it (although I guess I probably shouldn't be around kids anyway), and I don't want my friends to know I'm leaving, but other than that, I really just want to go home now and not worry about it anymore.
Oh, and to top off a really great day... My "d" key still doesn't work, so I'm going to have to take my computer in to the Apple Store at some point, and hope that it's not evident that I actually spilled lemonade + vodka on it right before it stopped working.
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Well, that went about as not-bad as it could have... My mom is flying in tonight, and staying at a hotel nearby. I'm going to be able to stay on campus this weekend at least, and we'll figure it out from there.
I'm probably going to be able to pass two of my classes, I might be able to pass half of another (weird, I know, but it's a lab science, and I might be able to pass the lecture half only), and hopefully I'll be able to get an incomplete on the fourth class cause my prof for that class I'm sure will be supportive at least.
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