Basically, I think I need professional help, but I'm not sure about approaching it with my mum..? She doesn't know I have any problems, but it's really starting to get to me. I tried writing a letter, but I couldn't time it right on when to give it to her or stuff...? Help?
What do you think is worng with you dear?
Because if she dosent seem to have noticed theres a chance that it may not be as bad as you think, not that im saying there isnt an issue.
Maybe you can try sitting down and talking to her? Or sending an email about it.
Eh, a whole load of things. The worst one is the voice inside my head, and it tells me how useless I am, how everyone hates me, I'd be better off dead.. And it just doesn't leave me alone. Also, I'm scared of leaving the house, because I'm scared people will attack me (but I still go to school, because I don't like the idea of not going)... There's a lot of other stuff as well, but those two are like the "main" ones...
I guess I feel hated sometimes... I can get kinda aggressive when I'm in a bad mood at school, so quite a few people are a bit scared of me. Also I feel hated because I don't feel like I'm worth caring about most of the time.. *sigh*
Hm.. Well, it feels like anyone might attack me, although I'm most edgy around other teenagers. I'm not scared too much of being physically attacked though, it's if someone started verbally attacking me, 'cause I wouldn't know how to respond.
Wow you sound a lot like me but I hear them plotting to attack me when I'm outside. *hugs* I know exactly how you feel.
You don't need to tell your mum yet, if you're over 16 you can talk to your gp confidentially who'll probably refer you, he wouldn't tell your parents without your permission. It would probably be a good idea for you to tell someone about how you feel.
And I was talking with a friend this morning, who managed to convince me I did need help in the first place. Before today I've just been telling myself that I should just ignore it and everything will go away.
*hug* don't ignore it hun, I hate to say it, but it will only get worse...have you ever thought about going to your doctor about it all? then your doctor could tell your mum? or would you rather it come from you?
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Take care hun.
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Yeah.. But it's just the timing and stuff. I had a letter written out today that I was going to give to her, but I couldn't really find a good time. And tomorrow's mother's day apparently, so... Eh.
There might never be the 'perfect' time. You could say 'Mum, things're really hard for me right now, and I need to talk. I need your help to get some support with this.'
If you ccant face telling her yourself your GP can tell her, mine did when idecided it was time to ask for help, or to be more acuraate sat in the surgerya nd showed them my stomahc but still,
im 15 so they had to tell but it takes the pressure off you
A letter is a really good idea, that's how I told my mum I just gave her the letter my psych had sent my GP, I was never good at telling people face to face.
Please get help, I've been messed up for years and it's got so much worse I wish I'd got help when I was 14 and I might have been ok by now.
Well, I told her, and we had a long discussion about it. Turns out there's a history of mental illness on my dad's side of the family, so yeah.. It actually went better than I expected, tbh, I thought it would be much harder for me to talk about.
