i feel a little out of place here as im usually in the self harm section... but anyways.
i spend a lot of time hating myself. at school or in public i am constantly looking at my arms and legs, wishing i could hide them from the world because im so fat. im X which apparently isnt that bad but when i look at myself i look a lot bigger. as soon as i go home i instantly stand infront of the mirror and most times cry because i cant believe how fat i am. i always wear loose clothing so no one can see the curve of my stomach or the curves of my thighs.
i constantly look at the nutrition guide of what i eat, and i pack things like celery to eat for lunch so people dont think im eating nothing. after eating any food at all i feel overwhelming senses of guilt and shame, and a couple of times i have made myself throw up in the bathroom if i feel ive eaten too much.
does this sound like an eating disorder? i dont think it is, as it doesnt seem too serious and i barely lose any weight no matter how hard i try. im only asking this because a friend told me that she thinks i have an eating disorder.
sorry if this isnt appropriate
