Hi, I don't know the purpose of this thread, I guess a little support and reassurance would be good.
I'm currently IP in my local psych. ward. My consultant wanted me to go to The Cassel. Funding has been approved they just have to come and assess me. However, because of my level of SH recently (4 trips to A&E last week)the Doctor is saying that the chance of The Cassel accepting me is very bleak. Her suggesting is to send me to a PICU and then back to The Dene (I was there 11 months, discharged Feb. 2012). I'm so sad about this

I don't want to go to a PICU and then back to The Dene again, it did nothing for me when I was there last time. Staff seem to think you can just stop self-harming just like that. If only it were that easy. They want me to talk to staff rather than SH but I find it difficult opening up to staff and to be honest I don't see how talking it over and over is going to help. To put it bluntly my Nan's dead (cancer) and so is my friend (suicide) and I blame myself for their deaths. I have problems at home, I feel like I don't fit into society. I've no friends. There is just so much and it can't be magically fixed by talking like they want me to.
Anyway, sorry to go on I just felt like I needed to get it out of my head.