Contains illicit drugs - ephedrine use

[i.am.me]

Firstly, i'm unsure if I should post this to substance abuse or eating disorder, I chose this because i feel it is becoming more of an issue than not eating. If you disagree I apologise.

So, I've had an eating disorder for a while, i have been treated by a community team but managed to keep my self out of hospital. I have also had a history of drug abuse, mainly cocaine and pills and a lot of this was because i didn't want to eat.

I also drink a lot of alcohol, and this seemed to be make it ok, on a drunken night, to buy ephedrine. (a weight loss drug used by body builders)

I am not a body builder. I am an 8 stone woman.

So this arrived an i proceeded to take alot. I don't know how much, i was drinking alot and lost like, 30 hours of my life. Noooo memory at all.

And obviously i am not asking for you to say Eph is ok or that alcohol i ok but i don't know how to stop this addictive process. cause if its not one thing its another. and i seem to always find a way to do harm to myself.

I wanna break the cycle!

[mat]

Talk to your doctor about stopping. They can help give you pills because quiting is hard cold turkey. Talk to your therapist if u don't got one get one.. they say if you goto aa meetings its 100 meetings in 100 days. You really gotta attack this head on if you're going to stop. Its not easy. Let people you trust know your trouuble. Pm me if you want.

[mat]

I thought I was tryin to help but I'm a bully

[Comatose.]

Talk to someone.