Up Again

[courtlymed]

I don't really know what to write here but I'm up again for the third time tonight since 9:30. I'm holding my cat and kind of paying attention to the tv but I can't because it's like my mind is preoccupied. My mind races a lot...a lot and it cause me to have lack of sleep. I sleep for a few hours then i'm up, then i sleep for another hour and i'm up, and it gets insane. I have really bad nightmares and I think that's why I get up so frequently. I have BPD so depending on my level that day, some days are worse than others. I wake up and I'm so scared because my house is dark that I run through the hallway until I reach a light switch then i turn it on. My cat follows me everywhere so I find comfort in her but I lay awake a lot of nights afraid of shadows, noises, and thoughts and it is working me, bad. I don't know if I should call my psychiatrist and see if I need a medicine change or add on another one. What should I do? I've told my mom and my boyfriend, and sometimes I sleep with my mom but it's scary. I know my mind is playing tricks on me but I can't get it to stop.

[tamobhuuta]

as this is causing you problems, talking to someone about it could be a good idea. what is it about the shadows and noises that frightens you?

[crazykat]

I can relate to having trouble sleeping too so I can understand how frustrating it can be. I find that it is sometimes helpful to get a pen and paper and write down all my thoughts before going to sleep as it helps to get them out of your head so you can relax a bit. It is definitely something worth mentioning to your psych though, they may have suggestions of something that could help. Take care
Kat xxx