feeling like i need it

[snoopdragon]

i have not hurt myself in acouple of weeks but right now icant stop thinking about it i was having a hard time all day and things got worse when a friend of mine was talking to me and she was upset and crying. seeing her cry always makes feel horrible because i never know what to do to help her. i dont know why i want to hurt myself this time so i dont know what to do im worried about my friend and that just makes everything worse i cant even sleep because i know she has tried to kill herself before when she was upset.i cant remember the last time i wanted to hurt myself this bad before and i dont know what to do.

[Mimsy]

I know this is going to sound harsh- but you must look after yourself first and foremost. I tried to help a friend out when she was in and out of hospital, suicidal and everything, but I completely ignored myself and I crashed and burned because of it. You can only help others if you help yourself.
You can keep going without harming, we all know that that only makes things worse. Stay strong.
Take care, Miriam xxxx

[~*forever_broken*~]

Hang tight hun.
*hugs*
You haven't given in so far and that's very good. Keep resisting. Miriam is right, it never helps. I know when I don't want to harm and then give in it only makes it worse.
*hugs again*
Take care hun.
xxxx
Alyssa

[snoopdragon]

thank you everone i have almost made it through another day but it just keeps getting harder and i want to just give in.i know that it will just make things worse so im tying not to do it.my friend was feeling better today and thanked me for being there for her and listening to her.that made me feel a little better but im still worried about her.i dont know what to do abou anything right now and i have no idea why i feel this way.