Triggering (SI/Suicide) - Thoughts

[marmaladeisnice]

I've had suicidal thoughts for a few years now, but they're slightly different now. Before I started on recovery for an eating disorder I just wanted to end it and I knew (and didn't) care it was going to happen pretty soon. I just felt like I was a complete burden on everyone and their lives would be easier and better without me.

But now, I know the effect suicide has on other people. I would never put my family and friends through that. Yet I still get the suicidal thoughts... It's like I don't want to die but I know I should. These thoughts are making me feel so numb inside.

Has anyone felt similar? Any support would be much appreciated.

Thanks

[emptyxcolorsxx]

I'm struggling with nearly the same thoughts right now, so there's not really much I can say. But, I'm here if you need to talk, you can message me at anytime. (: