ok so its been just under a week since i took an overdose. im on suicide watch by my mum and it is driving me crazy! i know she is only doing it because otherwise i would have just taken another overdose, but its really annoying me!
i just want to run away and overdose.
ive had depression for 3 and a bit years now and this episode is horrible it wont shift and the nhs wont help.
please help
xx
*hugs* I'm sorry you're going through this right now, but I'm glad your mum is there to support you. I know it can feel sufficating but she is doing what is in your best interest. Try and remember that she is doing this out of love, she isn't trying to hurt you.
Do you have any other support at the moment? A psychiatrist/councelor/psychologist? If you do could you tell them how you're feeling? If not do you think seeking help is something you're willing to do?
What's making you depressed right now love? Is there something in your life that's making you unhappy, or making your unhappiness worse? Stress at school, family problems, friend problems?
Stay safe hun, were here to listen and support you
xxx
You see a mouse trap
I see free cheese
And a ****ing challenge
i know how you feel
when i was very ill, my mum watched me every second, slept in my bed etc
its frustrating, but she is only doing it because she cares.
*hugs*
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
thnx guys,
am currently awaiting a psych appointment and have beeen involved with crisis team although they werent really very good.
just feel like she is way more stressed because of me and i rnt worth it nd she would be better off without me here.
grrr hate this feelin!!!
oh and there is no trigger for it.
x
I understand how horrible it is when you know that people are worried about you, but you are obviously worth it or your Mum wouldn't care about you at all. Why do you still want to OD?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
everyone it worth life. i can understand how that would be annoying, but as you said, she is only doing it as she cares for you. she obviously thinks you're worth it. i'd keep working with the crisis team. it's better than being on your own. *hugs* pm me if you ever need to talk.
Your Mum obviously wants you to be here - that is why she is keeping a watch on you. It's bound to be stressful for her but that shows she cares. Can you try to get your appt. brought forward?
i struggled with the crisis team too but theh can take the preassure off your mum, by keeping an eye on you and it can mean that it loosens the preassure on you.
i know your in a dark place and death seems like the only option, but things can improve, i od'd 9 weeks ago and i thought i'd never get out of that depression but im getting there.
if your notunder the crisis team's care anymore you should be able to move your appointment forward
x
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
