Hey Krisity, I can totally relate to what you are going through. I am married-seperated (getting divorced because of abuse towards me and my children) and have two small kids, I work full time, pay the bills and care for my kids. I was phsically and sexually abused for a long time, not from a man in my family but from a boyfriend-and others he let join in "his fun" and then my husband. I am a Si'er and have struggled with depression my entire life. I know the feeling of leading a double life. I also know that taking time for yourself can really work wonders. Now I am not suggesting that you sit alone doing nothing or just lay in a bath. What I suggest is something active, something where you are not thinking of all the yucky stuff. Something like kickboxing or yoga, or if you are taking a bath (i know doing things outside of the house is hard, i don't have the time or money for them) listen to music or something. I really hope things start looking up for you hun!
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