I have given up self harm and drinking many times for other people. One important thing I learnt in rehab is it is no good stopping for someone esle. The reason has to be for yourself. I used to have a rule that I did not harm if I had a gf. But this went horribly wrong when we split up. My CPN says if I SH I am not letting him down or myself and we will work around this. This is excellent advice as it makes me want to prove I can live without doing it and with some CBT I am finding there are other ways of dealing with a pressure cooker etc. For example ice therapy seems to work ok I have been using that recently and have not cut for 13 weeks.
In your situation I would think hard why has that person stopped you from SH. It is always a choice although it does have addictive qualities and cravings etc. As you are in a positive cycle of not SHing and have gone a month without. I think you will make the guilt worse for yourself if you do relapse. Do it for yourself, tell yourself you are worth it! If I was that girl I would be very pleased to hear that I had helped someone and the encouragement might help other people.
All the best
Ben
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