Lil advice?
 

Hi,

So i finally bit the bullett and spoke to my doctor about my SI and my mental state. He told me i was depressed but because i was doing well recovering by myself that there wasn't much i could do.

I had two appointments with him but i cancelled the second because i was feeling so much better. That was back in october. Sadly things fell apart, i relapsed but in february i managed to pull myself up and back to reality.

It'll be four months on tuesday since my last cut, but recently i've noticed a few behavial things... I go from extreme highs to extreme lows, participate and do things that are out of character, cause suspicion amongst my friends who are like 'who are you and what have you done with dani?' and am generally not myself.

I float between sleeping and not sleeping, my concerntration is poor and the severity of the switches in my moods are actually starting to scare me. One minute feeling on top of the world and then in a split second; scanning the nearby ditches to crash my scooter wondering how long it'll take for me to die or for someone to find me.

I can't pluck up that original courage to talk to my doctor nor any other doctor; they all scare me. I'm struggling as to what to do.

Has anyone got any advice as to what could be wrong or what i could do about this?

*hugs*

are you able to talk to anyone about this... maybe a close friend or family member? Maybe they could help tell your dr...

I know its hard and scary, but I think its great you have acknowledged something is wrong and needs to be done. Please hang in there.

If this is causing you a problem hun it's best to go to your GP and talk through the problem.
I know that's very scary but you deserve support for how you feel. Do you think you could write out what you're worrying about and give it to your GP? It might be easier and less scary for you. I was very scared that I wouldn't be able to explain clearly what I was experiencing and some things would be left unsaid. Getting everything written down means your GP can get a clearer picture of what's going on.
As for what's wrong? I don't think anyone here can really say love. Mood problems can be triggered by many things and anyone who says "well it sounds like..." will be misdirecting you as none of us are professionals and there could be a lot more going on underneath. The important thing is whatever the cause you are feeling and experiencing this and deserve support.
I hope you can pluck up the courage to see your GP hun, stay safe
Xxxx

^ What Tormented said

*hugs* I hope you manage to speak to your Dr about it. I know that they have previously said you seemed to be coping with it alone, but that does not mean you can not go back and say that the situation has changed since then and ask for it to be reviewed.

Best of luck.
Roiben x