Letter to my psychiatrist - replies appreciated ASAP
 

My mood is getting progressively worse. I'm not sleeping or eating properly. Drinking heavily to try to escape the thoughts in my head. Lacking motivation to do anything and consequently getting behind in academic work, which may have a significant impact upon exams and whether I will be allowed to continue at university next year.

A friend who is a psychology graduate suggested I have all the symptoms of Munchausens Syndrome or a factitious disorder of some sort. I have looked it up and agree that I have a tendency to fabricate or produce symptoms in myself with the primary intention of assuming 'the sick role' without any external incentives. Also suggested I display some signs of ADHD: poor organisational skills, difficulty focusing, mood swings, inability to deal with stress, irritability, impatience, risk-taking, poor social skills, forgetfulness, short attention span etc. I would like to look into these further if possible.

Increasing thoughts of suicide and self harm made worse by worsening auditory hallucinations.




The reason I want comments on this is because I'm really scared he's not going to take me seriously. It terrifies me that he'll just ignore everything I say.

Would really appreciate some comments.
Sorry it's long.
Thanks.

i think it's scarey but you'll only find out what your doctor thinks by telling him the truth. it sounds like you're in a really bad place right now so it'd be worth the risk of being ignored to get some help. i don't think there's anything wrong with what you've written.

If this is a way you can tell him, do it! without him knowing everything, it will be difficult for him to help. I really admire your honesty, and the way you put your point across succinctly by the way.

jen x

I gave it to him. He didn't listen.

I'm sorry. If you don't mind telling, what exactly happened? xxx

I think it's a great idea. Being honest with your psychiatrist is very important and you're very brave to be doing so.