I really need help......
 

sorry if this is too long, but i need to explain my situation.
2 years ago, (i was in a psychiatric unit which i still go to for day care and they are brilliant) another patient pinned me to a wall, pushed up my top and touched my breasts. well, its really bothering me now, even though i know it doesnt sound that bad, but i have been abused as a child.
i never said anything, but as its only affecting me now, i dont want to keep it secret.

only problem, i cant trust anyone enough to tell them. why? because i have ruined things for myself. i will explain.

i am very close to some of the staff at the hospital and so am i with my therapist as well. the issue is, years ago when i was at my most unwell, i said things had happened to me, but either exaggerated, or didnt tell the whole story. I really have been abused, but i added other people in as well and the reason was, was cuz i felt i wasnt worthy of feeling hurt by what really happened to me, didnt think it was that bad, so felt i had to say more for people to believe me or take me seriously. this came out in the open, thank god, and i can now be completely honest and feel worthy that if the truth upsets me, then that is justified.

thing is, sometimes and understandably, when i say things, now people dont always know what to think, they want to believe me and know i have come so far and that i am honest now, but if i suddenly (out of the blue and i think i was triggered as i saw this patient back at the unit a few weeks ago) talk about what happened, no one will believe me now and wonder why im only just bringing it up now. they may think i am going back to lying or exaggerating.

i dont know what to do and worry that only having this guy touch my breasts is maybe not a big deal. Help!

*hugs* wow I'm soo sorry. If you told someone, they probably wouldn't think you're lying. If you explained that you didn't want to talk about it when it first happened, I'm sure they would understand. Sorry I could be of more help, hun.

i think you've explained the situation perfectly in this thread, could you not print off your post and show them it or say pretty much what you've written here about what worries you about telling them etc? i dont think they will think you are lying but i can understand your fear. and if its affecting you then its most certainly a big deal!
take care
xxxx

I'm sorry that happened hun.
They won't think you're lying. They know you've changed and such. So try telling them and see what happens. Take care, sweetie. xo.