What if...(triggers all)
 

what if...
I was take those pretty little pills I have been hoarding...not like my pathetic last attempt
Do you think anyone would notice?
Do you think anyone would care?
Sitting in a house full of people yet feeling completely empty, hollow and alone.
Like a huge mansion with all the lights on but empty....nobody home.
I should still be in hospital but I don't want to let them down...they think that week locked up has cured me...and by letting my family know that I am struggling that I would have more support and feel less alone...

I feel more alone then ever...I don't want to wake up tomorrow...why can't I just disappear...

why dont you ask for help
pm box always open

Yes people would notice, people would care. I have never spoken to you personally but I have seen people on here who obviously care about you. I know your hurting and struggling but killing yourself is not the way. No one is gonna think less of you if you let them know you are struggling, so please at least 5think of telling someone. You can and will get through this. Take care
Kat xxx

Hun,
Please don't do this. Tell people you're struggling. xo.

i think lots of people care, that's why you're trying to protect them by not telling them. but you need to tell them you're not feeling safe so they can help.

i would care LOTS and i know there are lots of other people that would care....LOZZA for a start!

i love you so much pumpkin, and you know i am always around for a pm

mwah xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Yes that is right!! I would care... A LOT!!! Please hang in there sweetie.

Love you sooo much!!

Sometimes things get worse before they get better, the night before the dawn as the phrase goes.

You never know what you are giving up on until you die. You may think that no one cares, but you dont know how much it would hurt everyone if you died, and once its done it can never be erased, everyone you live has to carry that guilt for the rest of thier lives.

However they would not be dissapointed in you if you admitted you need help, they would see how strong you are for admitting you need help, after all, everyone wants whats best for you.