sleeping around.... *slightly adult*
 

ummm.. well atm as i havent been cutting ive been drinking... and im starting to get worried because i used to get so drunk i had no idea what was going on but i always ended up home n safe with nothing bad happening... but recently ive been getting less drunk than that... but most nights i dont make it home... and on tuesday nite i ended up hvin unprotected sex... im going tonite to get the emergency contraceptive pill... so ill b fine... but im jus freaking coz i think it seems to be another way of harming... like risking my safety... this isnt the 1st time thats happened but its the first time ive not been protected.... i think im just gettin worse... n i dunno what to do.... =[

please tell me im not just a stupid whore =[

xox

Well, I wouldn't say you're a stupid whore, but I would say you're not making very good decisions for yourself.

How do you feel after you've had sex with whomever? How are you feeling about yourself?

Maybe you should knock off the drinking if you feel it's part of the problem. You have to look after yourself.

Yeah, I agree with sandwich burger. Either ease of the drink a bit or don't go out as much, just for a wee while to see how things differ.
Look after yourself Fee
xo

It sounds like you're feeling pretty lost right now, but you also seem to know that you need to make some changes, and that's a good step.

What is it that you're looking for when you're doing these things, whether it's SIing, drinking, whatever it might be. What is it that you need that you're hoping to find, feel, etc. ? If you have some, I'm sure you can come up with some alternatives, things you can do instead. For example, when I need a distraction or if I'm feeling really awful, I write. That may not work for you specifically, but there are a ton of options, a million things you can do instead of drinking or SIing. If you need some ideas or need help distracting yourself, let us know! That's why we're here; to help. ^_^

In regard to the unprotected sex, I think you should know that emergency contraception/ Plan B is not foolproof. You said you'll be fine once you get it, but you should be aware - if you aren't already, that is - that you are still at risk of becoming pregnant. Plan B reduces the risk by up to 75%, but that's still not great odds. And of course it doesn't protect you against STDs. Given everything you posted, perhaps it would be in your best interest to book an Ob/GYN appointment and get a full exam and STD testing. Please know that I'm not trying to criticize or make you feel bad about yourself; we all make mistakes and poor decisions, especially when we're struggling. Rather, I'm hoping that you'll look after yourself and take the steps you need to take to ensure that you're healthy.

Good luck and take care of yourself. <3

yeh im gonna go to brook tonight... ill talk to them about my options... i realy do wanna be safe here... i feel so stupid... and my god this will not happen again.
i do know that the sleeping with randoms is not a good thing. i know that i do it becase i hate myself so much and that i feel ... liked... for a short time... but ive met a nice guy atm... and i think sumthing might actually come of it.. so once i get this whole mess sorted out ill try to stay on the straight and narrow. ive also just had a psychiatric assessment. so ill b getting more help form now on...

thank u all

xox
fee

Does anyone know about this?

some of my friends. but ive been to the place and got the pill and im goin back in 2 weeks 4 sti tests and if my period hasnt come thell do a pregnancy test. i hope it will all be ok... and this is NEVER happening again.... i have always had problems with drinking but this has freaked me out so much i think i shall NOT be doing it again....

xox