...all good things must turn to shit *graphic*
 

my wonderful new psych
who i waited 8 years for
FOUGHT eight year for;

"You may a well go back to Dr. X as thereis nothing more i can do for you. Good day"

Over.
Before it finally began.
Right after asking for refils i eeded and mentioning the benzo, and i was damn proud...having taken only ON
think that is his feeling, that i just want drugs....

Thats of course why i wrote all the detils of my gunpoint rape, thats why itold him im terrified to go out without sunglasses because ppl can read my thoughts othewise, that is why i was dead honest...

Because i just want drug.

Maybe now that my neck and both arms ae dripping blood i should go back and....and wha?? BEG??!!

**** THAT!!!!!!

**** him!
This just proves what i suspected al along....
no one will help me

im in it sink or swim

and you know
i never learned to tread.....



supposed to go to a friends Bday party/dinner tomorrow....tat should be fun...i guess its a scarf for me huh?

oh who the **** cares....

romp

i dont think im done yet.....
so sorry to worry but if i dont get some of it out it will be worse....
romp

Sorry, nothing useful to say but that is really ****. You need to go back and tell them. Please don't hurt yourself anymore hun you are worth so much more than that. Please, please, speak to someone before you end up doing something else.

*hugs real tight*
i know we're chatting already, but just to let you know i read it and that i'm here if you need, any time.

love you,

sky xx

*cuddles*
Oh Rompers, I wish I had something to say to you, something that would help (other than that this psych sounds like a huge ass). I am worried though hun. Please please PLEASE take care.

*massive hugs and much love*

Ally

thank you
i have an emergenc call in to my old doc to get me backin residential care....no call back yet. Big surpriise...NOT! I think i should just gothere but ive downed a few drinks and some sleeprs, maybre shold jsut go to sleep and igone the zxe
its so loud

Go there please hun. Really want to know you are safe for a bit.
*hugs*

I think whatever you decide to do you ignore the axe. Did they say when they would call back?

*hugs you gently*

i told him the tru
hard sa it was i didd it
then he gives scripts and say that there is ntohing more he can for e
i called hubby, he said go back ask why
did. he mumbled something of mes and benzo and that thats
****ing ****
sorry
now imbleeding and want so much more
andhuis day is on as normal
dont know if should (can) make bus for old docto get residential, have tohide wouldns as wont take me otherwise
psych hosp is a joke , but well no, is weekend for them , so no meds (except what i shmuggle in till monsday and no time out till see doc on monday. leat at residentil place can come adn go as pl;lease and theydotn search your stuff.
dont know wht to do
should take cab to docs aooffice and tell how i am
but vcant tell all or it psych ward.
resid. plavce wont take suicides
but they dont have to know, long sleeves and scarf will hide damage

wish id hit an artery
cept for family
and friends

sky...thank you nmoe than i can say for talkin gto me, i didnt think icould tlak to anyone but i could to you,i needed an ear, thatnk you. sory ifd worried
romp

maybe i wuold see 'melia?

no POM, just he was with a pteint, is oen of those who overbooks .....
no ieda
romp

*cuddles*
Rompers, please be careful sweetie, please. We love you SO much here, we would hate to see something awful happen...

i know you're tired, but you're still fighting romp, and i really can't imagine how you're feeling, but i still have total faith that you can do this. i don't know why you've had to endure another blow like this, it's not fair i know, but remember that you're still standing when so many others (myself included) would be out for the count, and that speaks volumes about how strong you are.

sorry, rambling a bit now. i so hope that you can get into the residential place.
please try and stay safe.

love and *hugs*

sky xx

i know you miss amelia romp, and i didnt know her (and it's not my place to say, so apologies if it upsets), but i'm sure that she would want you to stay safe and keep fighting. please be careful. xx

poiils are kickin in thihnk just sleep can do no harm sleeping right? be safe
wat for doc call i guess or see tomorow
****
i thuoght this waas it
how stupid can i mbe?
maybe im meant to die to someone help someone else, help docs see what they did wrong and not do itt agsain?
romp

*hugs* Romp... I dont really know what to say but please stay safe your worth more than this!

you're NOT stupid romp.
you're right, you need to be safe.
did you take a safe number of pills to help you sleep?
if you did then i agree, sleeping until the doc calls would be a good idea. if you took more then you should go to the hospital as soon as you can, or call someone? your hubby?

you're not meant to die, i'm sure of it.
i'm still around on msn/email if you want to chat or need company.

*hugs*

sky xx

*snuggles close*
im so scared for you rompers.
im so sorry i have nothing to offer.
please just sleep..it is the safest thing for you right now.
love you.
xxxxxxxx

How are you doing? Has your dr called yet?
*hugs*

thinking of you.........let us know what's happening / how you are if you can.

sky xx

please fight romp. please. please please please. *clings* i can't lose you darling. FIGHT IT! Scream at them to help you! Please!!!! Go back and show what has happned. He is your doctor still! Sue him. Take him to court for being negligent I don't know! Please get help. Please romp. Please :(

Please be careful romp, fight this please. You have got through this before you can do it again. Thinking of you
Kat xxx