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just when i thought i was going to hit bottom, i surrender myself to freedom

SO things have been tough. Just like it has for everyone else. I was 2 months behind on the house, bills unltold also overdue. Husband yelling.

I upset the kids the other night when i told them everything was going to be ok, even if it meant mom wasnt going to be home.

I didnt know what to do but give up.

I drove for hours after making my last post. I was trying to figure out where, how, how and where to just let go of who I am.

I have a job. My husband has a job. stupid ways of life caught up to us. They doubled my house note to cover taxes (which yes i forgot to pay).

After a very long night of crying NOT CUTTING and putting pen to paper i drove and found places where i could possibly work. Second job. Its the least I could do for my family. And doing something extra means keeping my mind (and hands) off the cutting or suicide.

I went yesterday morning with a portfolio full of resumes. didnt come home for 6 hours.
This morning, I get a call... be here at 11:30 for a FORMAL INTERVIEW!!!

Guess what, I got it. 30 hours a week. $8.00 an hour!!!! most of the hours are on the weekend when i am doing nothing!!! I see a way out. I DO.

I know I have been in a see future mode before...but spending time occupied, making money, keeping family together (but getting a good break form you know who) Awesome.

I used my head this time. And even more fun is that it is at a huge camping and sports store!!! I love it!

Sorry to have acted like a child and stepped away, i just had to surrender!!!

Thank you,
love kisses,
Rain

*big squishy snuggles*
im SO happy for you Rainy. you NEVER give up. i really admire you.
again..so very happy for you.
loves.
xxxxx

hey darlin that's fantastic! I am SO proud of you!!! *hugs* i KNEW you could do it

Of course we are all so happy to hear this news from you and we are PROUD OF YOU!
What I think is more important is that is sounds like you are feeling good about yourself and that you feel hopeful about something in your life. That is the greatest news of all!
*HUGS*

I'm so happy for you! Good luck with it!

I hear you about the money thing, I need a second job too.

Well done! Remember to have a little sleep in between all this work. oooh and steal me a tent too!

Well done sweetheart, I'm happy for you

a tent to cuddle in or a tent to live in?

you got it!

I am excited! It will only be 2 nights during the week and then weekends, so it wont be too harsh (i hope)

Thanks for your support people! YOU ROCK!

RAIN