numb inside. needed to feel
 

One step forward, two steps back. That's the best way to describe my life. An ever downward spiral with the occasional bump upwards but ultimately I'm on an inescapable course down into oblivion.

I've felt so pointless these last few days. the world has been felt through cotton wool. I've been separated from reality and felt nothing but the misery growing inside my core like a seed of darkness taking root.

Well now I've felt something again. I've slipped and cut. I tried so much not to cut. I've felt the need growing stronger and stronger over the last week and tonight I gave in.

no hope.

I'll be trapped in pain and blood forever.

did you take care of your cut? i hope things get better!!

i know how you feel.....

*hugs Adam*

I'm so sorry you feel so low right now. But there is hope.
Always.

It may sound daft. But when i feel the way you do, i just seem to observe the world rather than take part, but by observing i see little things like birds flying in the sky, or something like a river & it gives me hope that when things are so natural & normal, that my life can come back to normality too. It makes me want to fight, because i want to experience all the wonderous things.

Is there anything that you really wanted/want to do?
Maybe you could keep that in mind & fight for that? You'll be suprised at how easily you can be inspired sometimes.

How are you feeling today?

<3