havent felt like this in so long
 

i dont know what to do with myself, i feel like crap i dont even know why, i want to cry so much but it wont come, im shaking and tired and have a headache and i just want to explode,

theres no reason for it, i was fine an hour ago, i cant even co ordinate properly im shaking,

it makes no sense no reason no why and i dont know what to do, why,

i wish the tears would come, that would help im sure it would,

i dont want to cut again, my gp and bf might see, please just let this pass

some one please its wont stop

Hold on tight to your teddy bear or something. Snap a rubber band. Throw things. Ice is great for throwing. I crochet and embroider so that gives me something productive to do.

Maybe you can watch or read something sad to get the tears going?

Please, do explode outward. Don't turn this on yourself!

My PM box is always open!

thanks blondiebear,

feeling much better last today, dont know what happened last night

just wanted to lend my support and say hold on and get through it x hugs x

I'm glad you feel better today.

Catherine xxxx

My PM box is always open too!

Ok having spoken to a loverly lady in chat today it appears i have experienced my first (and im realllly hoping) last panic attack,

not impressed by this in the slightest, worried that its going to happen again!

*offers a soft punching bag*
they work!!!! when i cant cry.
loves.
xxxxx

Thank you yellow,

its been trying to come back on and off all day but im ignoring it,

going to go for a bath soon and hopefully wash it all away xx