.mentions amputation/ SI/ OD
 

since valentines day (what a great day to pick >.< ), i went outside to ge the axe. I had just moment before slit my wrist for two reasons,
a) if i didnt succeed with the axe iw oulod bleed out {i mad3 sure i cut thru a major vein> I passed out before i found the axe (thakgodf).

Police came and ambul;ance too of coursed,,,abyways tri make htis sghrter.....I was give n a morphinr drip and by the i had woke up Clearly/lucid wqas several days laster ( i also took an major OD, 'just in case....anywyas i was given th meorphine drip and when i awle it was enery 8 minites i could have some...i broke my shouder very badly, like bone stickingh out and swollen, baly {due to such low weight]Well i was given a medication to take e vert 4 hours 'as needed'. Well last docs a[ppt, some time this week, dont remember...i admitted to him that i *think*, hell I KNEW, i was using when i did NOT need to.

So adfmitted to him and got the dose cut in half.....and im oing thjru WD hell. I found one ans took iot...the full, previos dose/

I a, mer certahjn i am addied to it...

i CRAVE it, F**cvk i NEED it....of callinmg doc fot a wa;kl appt.
and lie top him and tell him i over did iyt wothj erxercising thje ar3n and i am talking teo of hjr half doses at a time...or that i fell opn it [hr knows i ahve blacck outys]

OH but this is SUCH a bad idea...but i *think * im goung to tru

p;ease, if you cioylod spend jsy a moment to send good kluck, prayers/vibes...just ANYTHING

Im going to trty to be honest and adnit, I AM NOT safe , zzt akkkromo p z i did not mention th na,e d nane if drugl

romp

Please ring for help now. It sounds as if you are in a very, very bad place and from your post, very unsafe too.
Thinking of you, I'm sorry I haven't been able to add more,
x

Heya honey, I don't know you, but.. Please take care of yourself.. It may be a very, very good idea to phone the crisis team or go to the hospital, anything to make sure that you're safe.. Is there anyone like a therapist or counsellor you can talk to?

You really ought to talk to someone, even if it's a phone conversation.. You sound like you're in a really dark and unsafe place at the mopment, so please, find someone to be with or talk to, just to make sure that you are safe

thinking of you

xxKirstenxx

*hugs you*
Romp, you know you can come talk to me any time.
*hugs you some more*

Honey

If you keep feeling like this, you must do something about it. Go to the hospital, get yourself looked after.

Your not in your right mind at the moment, what is best for you.
Show Hubby your posts, let him take care of you.

Keep posting, emailing, talking. Anything
Love you
Jade xxx

*huge hugs*

Thinking of you sweetie. Please try and talk to someone and admit the truth, sweetheart.

PM me anytime you need

*more huge hugs*

Much love
Hana
xxx

I hope you're okay *hugs*
I'm here if you need somebody to talk to.