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who the fuck have i got to taqlk to who have i got to help me fucking no one ive lost everything
i cant go on

heidi, whats happened hun? did the hospital not give you any after/follow up care etc? sending *cuddles*
am here if you need to chat xxx

they did but i have no one to turn to friend wise sumone who will actually listen 2 me not since i lost the one person i talk to i rang him n he jst hung up on me

who do i go 2 now

aww sweetie, i know its not quite the same but you got us here. we will always listen and try to help.

have you spoken to your friend since hosp-do you know why he hung up? x

I agree, there are always people around, Im here if you do want to talk.
take care xx

he doesnt even no i was in hospital because i wasnt speaking to him then either i wanted to sort things out between us but he wont let it happen and i dont even know what ive done wrong

hunni please be careful, you have us! no matter what happens, everyone on here will support you and look out for you,
I don't understand why he hung up, he sounds as though he might be confused or unsure sweetheart. give it time ok?
please try your hardest, lots of love
xxxx

Perhaps he feels rejected by you, as you do by him. The only way forward with that is to communicate, as has been mentioned via email or letter.